To all who is reading, this is a real time, typing my thoughts as they flow in my brain down to paper, kind of blog entry. So I was typing what I was thinking in a span of a couple minutes. I have inattentive ADHD and am the Queen of Procrastination and Overthinking, all due to this little problem.
“I have work at 5pm, but what time am I out? I have work again at my other job. I have to make money. I have to pay rent. I have to get groceries next week. I have to get gas. I have to get sleep. I have to get more money. I have to get a new job. Oh yeah, I have gotten two emails from job applications from a company. I have to reply to that. I have to see what position I applied for in that company. Was it a manager position? Or were they thinking that I have strong managerial skills to offer me a management interview?!
I have to help my sister. I have to pick up my other sister. I have to finish my loan application. I have to be available for my family when they need me. I have to pay my phone bill. Why is my bill so high? I have to find a carrier. Will open it on my phone and leave it in an open tab so I can look at it later. I wish I can be filthy rich and have an empire like Jeffree Star. I aspire to be as successful as this beautiful person is. I want my own cosmetic line. I want to graduate. I want to become a successful Licensed Psychologist. Wow, my family is now betting money on me graduating or not because it took me a bit. I don’t know if I will graduate in time or not.
My heart is so broken and I dislike that I have disappointed him.. I cant help how my brain works. I miss people in my life, I dont like my morning without certain things done. I dislike that I lose people, I love people however value my privacy.” — *brain working too hard and mixed with emotions that I cannot express into thoughts nor words anymore*
