I have moments.
Moments I cannot completely describe.
I have moments when my body and soul restarts, mostly during a thunderstorm.
I have moments when I am reminiscing on certain and specific moments that I re-live and “re-feel” every single second of it but makes me crave it more.
Just like when you remember that you loved this dessert you had and want it that same moment.
I have moments when I get lost in my thoughts Mostly imagining far-fetched scenarios
I have moments when I am full of excitement and love for this lifestyle
I also have moments when I doubt everything that I love or care about, including this lifestyle
Do I want to be a kitten? A Little? A bottom?
Do I want to continue in this lifestyle? Is it a phase?
Is it just that I need a break from it or to break from it?