As I sit outside, enjoying the beautiful evening and watching the sunset, I wonder. I wonder about my life, about how I wouldn't change it. I wonder about what my purpose is anymore. Is there really even a purpose?
I live day by day, happy most days, sad others. I wonder what life has in store for me anymore. It's like a never ending cycle of loneliness. I went from my kids being little to now grown. Yes they still need me, but it's so different. One flies away, the other two saying they will be soon. And I wonder again, does life really have a purpose? Is living day after day in the same monotone routine all that's left?
I ponder on these thoughts most days. Yes, most days I'm very happy. But today, as I sit here with the slight cool breeze blowing through my hair, my thoughts ramping through my mind, I'm sad. But tomorrow I will wake up with a smile on my face and get back to it.