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I’m hoping to use this as a way to put myself out there and make more friends ;)
3 years ago. June 5, 2021 at 10:53 PM

sadly not a nighttime thought :(

Trust is something I value over anything when I first meet someone. But even after multiple hours upon hours of conversating (to help you), I still can't believe I was hurt in the end. The lies that were made, the stories that were told, and the issues that had become, were all in a team to work against me. And for what? To make yourself look cool? To have your 15 minutes of fame? FOR WHAT?

Are you not embarrassed at yourself? Are you not ashamed? 

I was told by my parents that trust isn't something you give out easily. It's something that is earned through time and effort. But when that trust is broken, it's hard to get back. Especially with me...

Whenever I joined, I looked to you for help and with respect because you told me about all the things I should know. And now, I can't even stand the thought of you.

Even though I was not the one in the wrong, I owned up and still apologized like a grown woman. I used my words to speak. Unlike you who used your words to dispute toxic words and lies in order to play the victim. 

But respectfully, I hope things get better for you. I hope things turn out the way you wanted....

 

 

next time, I won't be trying to fix something that doesn't want to be fixed... 

3 years ago. June 4, 2021 at 6:55 AM

Today’s nighttime thought: I think too much

Over the past few days, weeks even, I’ve realized how much I think about things. Whether it be about my own personal issues, school, what the hell i’m gonna eat that day... it doesn’t matter

Some would call it ✨overthinking✨ and I agree, even if I don’t want to admit it

I’d rather sit here and read about the endless amount of stars in the sky and how they’re formed than think about why I told that one waiter to enjoy her food.

But in all honesty, thinking helps me. Thinking helps me solve issues easily because I’ve already thought of the possible outcomes along with the solutions. If I didn’t think, I wouldn’t know what I’d do. That’s why I’m thinking right now.