As i have been exploring my own domination i keep being brought back to deep set feeling from my childhood.
Trauma's, beliefs and patterns created by a society and father who objectified woman and the introduction to porn way to early. as well as a mother totally withdrawn from any sexual energy at all due to her childhood trauma.
It helps me understand what it is I want as a dominant. It helps me observe myself so I can re-educated those stuck or lost parts of me that I am only finding again now. I have been wronging myself for years for objectifying woman, when it was a learned behaviour not a choice. When i want sooo much more from woman than just a body to use, it is not who i am.
But today i found those patterns, I have observed them gently, I have held a space for them to change, I have owned them with love and re-educated them to who i am now, not what my close minded society and parents showed me.
I feel free from it, although it has just happened and I need time for it to process, I look forward to the harmony this will bring me and future subs.
New doors have opened.
I look forward to more lessons