Contemplation.

We met on a kink chat site, and we just hit it off organically, we chatted for months until I mentioned id be in her area for work in a few weeks. She asked if we could meet up. I said unfortunately I'm busy all day that day other than my lunch break and she said that’s fine she will bring me lunch.  I looked forward to our first in real life meeting and her online profile did not do her justice, she was beautiful.

She was very dainty and pretty in her looks, 33 years old and beautiful thick dark hair and green eyes, she had a very soft submissive feeling about her, but you could feel herself acceptance from the inner work she had done for many years of self-reflection. It was so easy to be with her, it was like she immediately knew what my needs where and wanted to make me happy. She had told me she had recently finished her personal project and was free and had no plans, I knew her mum had passed away and she wasn’t needing to work for a few months.  

 

She brought me a lovely steak salad and kombucha and sat with me and chatted as I ate. She took the plates away and returned with a warm wet facecloth and simply wiped my mouth and hands as she chatted away. For a few months she would make me lunch when I was working in her area. It was very simple very pleasant. She had asked enough questions about my likes and dislikes over the months to know what I liked and what to make me.

 

After the 4th lunch together she asked if we could plan for her to come stay with me for a weekend so she could see my home and my way of life? I was pleased to oblige her, and she left after lunch very pleased. An hour later I got a message from her. It said: “would today me ok for me to come home with you?”

I finished work late that evening 10.30 and I met her outside my work waiting with a small bag packed for her stay.  We drove the 2 hours to my home, and she asked me question after question: what time do you usually go to bed? What time do you wake up? When are your friends around? What do you like for breakfast? What do you drink before bed? And on and on she went asking me. I just answered them and waited for the next one.  I could feel her intense concentration and her excitement.   

We got home and I showed her into my house, showed her the different rooms and where basic things were kept like towels and cleaning supplies.

She knew from her questioning that when I get home late, I need to spend 15-20 minutes unwinding, I usually check my emails or watched a little telly, drink a fruit tea and then go get ready for bed.

She asked me where I would normally sit to unwind and I showed her and she led me to my seat and I sat down, she went to the kitchen found what she needed to make me a tea as I sat watching telly. She came with my tea, sat on the floor in front of me and slowly removed my socks. She had brought a warm damp towel, and she cleaned my feet and gently massaged them for me. After about a half hour I was ready for bed and I stood to go upstairs to my room, she followed.

I stood at my bed, she stood in front of me and without even thinking she started to undress me, once I was undressed, she went off to the ensuite and returned with another warm wet hand towel and a bowl of warm water, she handed me my toothbrush and started to wipe me down whilst I brushed my teeth. When she was wiping my groin down, I began to get erect, and she looked at me for permission and I nodded my head. She began to suck on my penis slow and evenly with long deep throating thrusts, I could smell her sex explode and hear her heart rate increase as she focused on pleasuring me.  I fell back on to the bed and she came forward and kept giving my penis attention with her mouth, her hand where on my knees as she knew I like a mouth only blowjob with deep thrusts. After a good passionate time, I ejaculated and she held her mouth over my cock as I emptied myself into her, I heard her swallow as she pulled away and wiped my penis down with the not so warm towel.

I lay down into bed and she pulled the covers over me.  She asked if she was allowed to go prepare herself for bed and if I would like her to sleep in the spare room, on the floor next to me or in my bed. I asked her to get ready for bed and to come get in bed next me.

Once she was in bed, I explored her body in any way I wished, she just surrendered herself to me, never once did she say no to anything, I already knew her boundaries and that was just the one, she did not enjoy anal play, but once we were more established, she wished to change that. I did not sleep well. I am not used to someone in my bed. So neither of us really slept, I lay there as she rode me three time that night, I came once more and she reached down and scoop my cum into her mouth, she knew that’s where it belonged.

I woke to an empty bed, I heard her coming out of the shower, she was surprised I was up so early and gently apologised for not being ready before I woke.

 

She arrived on time, luckily for her.

This was her first time in my company in private.

She stood just behind the closed and locked front door.

I could see in her face that she was excited and anxious, she knew that we had deeply discussed her kinks and her needs and her limits. I knew her need that was so deep inside her was to feel like she was nothing, nobody, of no use to anyone so just being used was like a dream come true for her.

 

I speak for the first time in the roll as her master. “I have no idea where you have been you maybe filthy with, who knows what, disgusting, strip down. “

As I turn around, I see the look of shame in her eyes, I walk away, ignoring her as she obeys my words and strips down to her nudity. I left her there waiting for a few minutes all alone in a place she had never been before. I could feel her fear and excitement from the other room. I could smell her arousal wafting through the door.  

 

I call out to her; “climb the stairs and go to the bathroom and stand in the bath.” I hear her go and I leave her waiting in my bath for another 10 minutes as I take a few work calls.

 

When I get into the bathroom, she is staring at me, uncertain of what to expect, I take the hand shower that has a very long hose and I turn the water on to warm. I tell her to turn around slowly, and I wet her down, I point to the soap and tell her to wash every part of her body and that I will watch as she does it and if she misses a spot she will be leaving as she is wet with her clothes in her arms and she can get dressed in the driveway, I watch her soap everywhere, he goes over many parts several times just in case. 

I can feel she is concerned if I find her large body appealing or not and I can see her feeling shame as she washes her pussy and ass.   

 

“I’ll give you one more minute to be sure every bit of you is washed, I don’t want to be touching any horrid thing you may have brought in with you.” I set my phone timer and she washes again, soap bubbles everywhere.

The buzzer goes off and I start to wash her down with the shower head on its calmest setting, wide and a little edgy. She turns around intuitively following my direction.

 

“Stand with your hand on the wall” I say to her, and she obeys.

“Spread your legs” and she obeys.

“Bend over further and bring your hands down the wall.” And she obeys.

“Push your asshole out towards me” and she obeys.

I change the shower head setting to medium firm and I it narrows it stream and I wash off the soap from under her arms down toward her backside that is pushed out towards me, I change sides and the I was her back down again. Then I focus the spray on her ass hole and clean any leftover soap off it.

I can hear her gasp with the pleasure of her ass being sprayed.

I quickly wash her pussy clean from soap and the back of her legs.

 

“Stand up, turn around, back against the wall, legs spread wider, arms behind your head” and she obeys.

She is standing with her back against the cold tiled wall and her body wide open dripping wet.

 

I shift the shower head to its firm setting and focus it directly at her chest and shoulders, she puts her head back automatically and I ask her to keep it there.  I focus the narrow jet of water on each of her nipples alternating from time to time.

She is squirming, her body is flexing beyond her control the sensation of the hot and cold, pressure and situation she finds herself in, it’s so new for her she doesn’t know how to even be present. She is lost in total pleasure, uncertainty, and shame.

 

She slowly gets used to my pattern, chest, nipple, chest, nipple, chest, nipple that she has become calm drawn into the waves of movement.

This is when I step forward and put the pressure of the water directly onto her clit and then just oh very slightly massage her clit from side to side, and up and down randomly, but leave the pressure constantly on her clit.

She starts to tremble very quickly, and the slave who said she struggles to orgasm without a toy, is in orgasm very quickly.

But I do not relent, I say to her, ‘You see I was right; this is a dirty, greedy, fat pussy and it needs deep cleaning.

After a few minutes of edging her with the water pressure I pull away.

“I tell her to put her hand out and I put a huge squirt of body wash in her hand and tell her to wash that dirty pussy properly again.

 

She lathers it up and quickly orgasms again to her dismay, she looks at me waiting to be scolded for being so dirty. But I ignore her.

I tell her to move her hand and she does, and I begin washing her pussy off again. The water pressure sending her trembling again.

After two more small orgasms I can see she is trembling from exhaustion, and I turn the water off. I get her out of the bath get and tell her to curl up on the thick shower floor rug and throw a large warm towel over her. I tell her to wait.

 

An hour later I call her to my room near the bathroom.  Now she is clean enough for me to inspect.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I have been delving into this world of BDSM again for a few years now. 

I have been through all different aspects of the Dom energies. where it obsessed me, owned me, compelled me. it has sent me into frenzy, despair, joy, euphoria and loss. i have learned so much from the journey.

 

It has left me feeling far more equipped to lead my vanilla life as well as my kink life. 

 

I have learned that just relaxing and being the natural dominant male that i am is more than enough. 

 

Could you do with a laugh? This had me in stitches!

FIFTY SHADES OF GREY
The missus bought a Paperback,
down Shepton Mallet way,
I had a look inside her bag;...
T'was "Fifty Shades of Grey".

Well I just left her to it,
And at ten I went to bed.
An hour later she appeared;
The sight filled me with dread.

In her left hand she held a rope;
And in her right a whip!
She threw them down upon the floor,
And then began to strip.

Well fifty years or so ago;
I might have had a peek;
But Mabel hasn't weathered well;
She's eighty four next week!!

Watching Mabel bump and grind;
Could not have been much grimmer.
And things then went from bad to worse;
She toppled off her Zimmer!

She struggled back upon her feet;
A couple minutes later;
She put her teeth back in and said
"I am a dominator!!"

Now if you knew our Mabel,
You'd see just why I spluttered,
I'd spent two months in traction
For the last complaint I'd uttered.

She stood there nude and naked
Bent forward just a bit
I went to hold her, sensual like
and stood on her left tit!

Mabel screamed, her teeth shot out;
My God what had I done!
She moaned and groaned then shouted out:
"Step on the other one!!"

Well readers, I can tell no more;
Of what occurred that day.
Suffice to say my jet black hair,
Turned fifty shades of grey!!

 

sometimes, somedays, in some moments. 

being a human being can be hard fucking work.

 

 

last night when I went to bed, I lay thinking about meeting you the first time and how it would play out.     

 

you are coming through my front door into my living room, I would sit on my sofa, in my favourite spot.  I would ask you to get on your knees right in front of me, really close. I’d look you in the eye, long slow connection eye to eye. id speak to you; see how you are feeling.  then I would ask if you want to submit to me. by asking if you would like to stay or go. if you say stay then I will reach my left hand out to the back of your neck and run my finger through your hair, so I am holding the back of your head by your hair. id move your head around, controlling its position totally.  id slowly put my right hand onto your neck. firmly holding you. bringing you closer and closer to my face, I would position you so I can use my teeth and grab your lip with my teeth and pull on it. my eyes never leaving yours.

 

id observe your breathing, I will know when your body is feeling safe or not. and keep on holding you. talking to you, soothing you.

 

I put my right hand on your chest and breath with you till you are totally calm and relaxed.

 

then I would grab your neck again pull your head to me and kiss you aggressively, as soon as you get into it, I pull away.  slow it all down again. and repeat until your only thought is my touch, my mouth.

id push you slightly back and in one fluid move remove whatever top you were wearing. pull your tits out and grab head again with my left hand and with my right, explore your breasts, the weight of them, feel the skin. watch your reaction as I lightly touch your nipples.   

 

once you had gotten over the shock of your breasts being mine to do with as I liked, you relaxed again. and I pulled you tits up so your nipples could be sucked on each in turn. and I held your hair tight. pulled you hair so you knew I had you. I pushed your hands behind your back and told you to keep them there and I kept sucking and biting at your nipples. I could feel I was getting hard now, I enjoyed feeling aroused and it made me more assertive with you. I pulled your head to me and kissed you hard. pushed your head back so your neck was open, and I dived in with my mouth and bit at the skin of your neck sucked on it and scrapped my teeth down to one of your nipples. your head held firmly back your chest out for me to own, suck and lick.  

 

I slowed everything down again. keeping your head back and then bringing it forward, moving you about with my left hand, all very soft and gentle, just like I am a soft gentle dom. I can see you are loving the control. loving knowing I am enjoying you.

 

whack without warning I spank your breast right on the nipple. a good hard firm spank, and again and again till your nipple is throbbing with the sting of it. and I slow down again. 

 

I grab your head with my left hand even firmer and pull you in again and kiss you hard. push you back let go of you and tell you to just lay on the floor and breath for a few minutes. giving your knees and your body some rest. a break for a moment or two.  I just sit and watching sprawled on the floor your hair going everywhere.

 

stand up. and you react immediately and stand up. come to me, you come to me without hesitation as you come close enough, I remove your bottoms and your underwear. you are naked your bra being discarded earlier on.

 

naked in front of me and I can see you are feeling insecure. I leave you feeling that way as I caress the skin on your belly. as I stare into your eyes holding you gaze.

 

I push you back slightly, " pick up all your clothes" so you pick them up. "Fold them nicely” you look surprised, but obey, you fold your clothes and give them to me.   I tell you to go sit in nadu facing my fireplace. and I take your clothes away. your clothes are now gone. you have no idea where they went. you are now naked without clothes in my house, sitting with your hands faceup on your knees, facing my fireplace naked.  you are now truly facing your desire. your desire to be owned.

 

You have been sitting in nadu a good 7 or 8 minutes, hear me moving about, once you moved your head to look and see what I was doing and heard me say. “Head forward. eyes down”. You have no idea what is happening, you are just sitting their waiting. Scared, excited. I go sit back in my favourite spot and ask you to stand and come to me. You obey with a nervous energy. Back on your knees my hand in your hair and your head mine again.  I talk to you gently and get you back into that same calm place you were earlier. I kiss you again, this time slow and gentle, with my left hand I am playing with your nipples and gently pulling on them in turn. I can feel you relax again. You know this, this is a good place, and it feels safe, it feels nice, it feels hot. I ask you quietly to turn so your shoulder is facing me. I keep pulling your hair and controlling your head with my left hand and rubbing and pulling your nipples with my left.

I sharply pull your face towards me and kiss you again. Deep kisses and I suck your tongue into my mouth and hold it with my teeth. I can feel your body loves this. I can see your eyes staring at me as my teeth hold you. My right hand goes down and rubs your pussy. It so wet that I can slip my fingers into you without even trying. I let go of your tongue as your body realises, I am inside you.

 

My fingers are firm and strong in dealing with your pussy. In and out pulling your juices so that your entire groin area is wet and sticky. So moist.  Still your head is held firmly, and I pull it even further back opening up your neck more.

10 firm spanks hit your pussy, one after another.  The shock of the first spank is so sudden your body jumps but the sting and the pleasure explodes into you as I keep slapping, fingering, rubbing your pussy. Your head back your body mine.

The amount of wet coming out of you is making a splattering sound and splattering juices all over my carpet. The smell is intense and turns me on.  I look at you and see you are lost in it, totally lost in every feeling going on in your body. I can feel the energy of your lust and I know I have you. You will obey, and obey and obey, your body, your soul needs this.

 

I stop and sit back, I relax, and you just kneel there breathing heavily, waiting. Waiting.

 

“Stand up”. You jerk into awareness. Your pussy still burning with sting of being slapped and the desire for more.

You stand up, I pull you round to my sofa, I push you forward.

 

“Kneel on the sofa, head on the backrest”. I watch you obey.

 

“Legs wider” I watch you obey but also feel you become aware your pussy is now open from behind.

 

“wider” you obey, and your breathing gets more intense.

 

“Good girl”

 

I run my hands all over your body. Taking my time inspecting how your tits hang down.  The curve of your ample fuckable hips, the crease leading to your arse.

 

“When I spank you, you say; Thank you Papa”. You whisper back “yes Papa”

“When I ask you intensity you tell me about the intensity for you 1 being soft 10 being to hard. “ you reply barely audible yes Papa.

 

Whack: “thank you Papa”

Whack: “thank you Papa”

Whack: “thank you Papa”

Whack: “thank you Papa”

Whack: “thank you Papa”

Whack: “thank you Papa”

 

 

“Intensity?” it takes you a moment to answer, the feelings are so strong. Your body is on fire but not from pain, from release.

“4 papa”

 

Whack: “thank you Papa”

Whack: “thank you Papa”

Whack: “thank you Papa”

Whack: “thank you Papa”

Whack: “thank you Papa”

Whack: “thank you Papa”

 

“Intensity?”      “More please Papa. 6 Papa”

 

Several minutes of slow hard spanks later I can see your arse is a happy pink colour nothing to intense but enough you won’t forget about it for a few days.

 

I slid next to you, grab your hair, and pull your head towards me. As you look at me, I see your smile, I feel your lust and I hear you say without control. “Thank you”

 

“You are going to suck my cock now; do you want to suck Papa’s cock?” 

You almost growl. “Yes Papa”

 

 

I'm laying back you are on the floor in front of me, my hand is in your hair and you your warm wet mouth has just the head of my cock in your mouth, and you are sucking, sucking it like a lollipop, the tastiest lollipop you have ever tasted.

 

All I had said is, show me, show me you want to be here, and I let you think you have my cock to suck in any way you want. But I am observing you, watching you, I want to know what you are good at and what you need to be trained for, but I love the way you are sucking.  I’ll let you keep on going as I enjoy it.

 

in my profile i clearly say i am a soft psychological dom. this means i get to understand the submissive as we go along. i want to get into her head, i want to know what makes her tick. i am also very good at this. i get paid very well to do this as a career.

This seems to draw young or new submissive's to me and a few more experienced. What i have found is that when i get to know them and understand them. when i can answer them in a way that they cant hide from me, when i show i understand them they run away. ( i thought the point of D's is to get to know each other so well that you feel safe and secure with each other)

I met a nice young lady on a different platform she told me she was a brat in need of taming and training. When i was chatting to her i could tell she was looking for ways to be able to attack me. When i commented on something i wouldn't allow, (one of my limits) i could feel she took that into account and remembered it as something she could use to fight against me. 

She had approached me, she had offered her contact details for private communication without prompting, she asked me if i could tame her and as soon as i was able to see her process she blocked me and ran away. 

its wrong to surmise, but i believe she wants to submit as much as she wants to push the Dom away. her brat energy seems to be a way of her controlling her situation. Now, i am not wronging her for this if i am right, its just her process. She ends up being able to blame the Doms for not being able to tame her, but never gets to actually surrender to her submission.  

i am quite new at being a Dom so i might be totally wrong.  id enjoy other peoples feed back.

 

thanks for readind M O 

 

One thing is for certain, i am learning a load since being back in this BDSM sexy, fun, caring world. 

But i am certainly learning more about flags of different countries. I find myself opening peoples profiles to see where they are from because i don't recognise the flag. 

 

its the small things

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i have become aware of a battle going on inside of me.. 

a battle of a long suppressed dominant energy that is used as by my caregiver and the caregiver energy that is dominating. 

 

in the online Bdsm world i have found its easy to be in my dominance, i find submissive's i have spoken to enjoy the feeling and are interested in being in connection and seeing where it goes. 

but when i get to or even visualise a real life connection with a sub, my caregiver steps in and pushed my Dominant self to the back and uses it to add caregiving. i am aware i probably just need more real life experience and i am working on it. i am just uncertain how to put them into balance. 

 

i don't yet know how to surrender to my dominant side and put my caregiver behind. i am enjoying exploring the depths of these parts of myself.