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Rose's Thorns.

A general pondering.
1 day ago. Jul 13, 2020, 8:00 PM

Its amazing how people twist things around. No concept of boundaries or behaviour and push it onto the other person. 

So after a neighbor who asked to see my lady parts as normal behaviour i asked if this was something he often did with female friends and now im being told ive provoked him and he doesn't want any contact with me after giving into being human. 

..... seriously and yes this idiot goes to bdsm munches. 

Each time trying to see my boobs or my vagina trying to seehow far he could get. Saying im harsh and lost a friend for giving into being human.

A friend would never have put me in that position. Watching porn and then coming over telling me how he keeps getting hard and finding it difficult. Thats not my problem. 

 

Now ive provoked him been judgemental and harsh. Really? 

Like really! 

Oddly asking why i didn't tell him i was uncomfortable at the time after he asked me if i would sleep with him.

This response is exactly why i didn't i say anything at the time.

 

Self control is important. Calling me judgemental and then saying you apologied when you didn't by saying all these things isn't an apology. 

 

God its hard being a woman sometimes. Even the nice ones can be arseholes. 

 

This wouldn't happen in a bdsm club. Not at least without someone going okay thanks bye. I wouldn't have to say no and use contraceptive as an excuse. I wouldn't be asked these questions and if i didn't want to play it would just be okay i don't have to think of reasons and one no is enough for the other person to respect that decision. Not this. I would feel safe. Xxxx 

1 week ago. Jul 2, 2020, 12:22 AM

Ah my old friend. 

You get me hammered put on bad 90s music. Dull the pain .... stupid masochistic tendencies wanting an outlet. And... have me messaging my ex over safety check ins and yes .... my family is that insane. 

 

Wine .... where have you gone...

 

 

I need you and greenday 

 

2 weeks ago. Jun 27, 2020, 5:07 AM

When does life become fun? Ive had enough of things being tough. I don't want to keep banging my head against a door that isn't going to open. Feeling a little hopeless.

3 weeks ago. Jun 19, 2020, 1:18 AM

Im curious if anyone else has become tempted to delete their account in recent days? There seems to be a lot of anger in general out there at the moment and i get why, but its like a pressure cooker. 

1 month ago. May 18, 2020, 1:29 AM

Wants to repeatedly smack her head against the desk..... 

And its not like me but could do with a hug. 

Oh thats right its just me.... where has that desk gone? 

2 months ago. Apr 26, 2020, 1:08 AM

At the end of the road there is a house with no number. 

You darent enter for there is a monster within 

You devise plans with friends who can get in

But no one does.

 

What does this monster do, you want to go monster hunting 

No one can answer for no one knows 

Why is a monster 

Everyone is to scared to find out.

No one knows 

 

You take turns running up and running away.

You must never go near this house. 

Its not safe

Its dangerous 

 

You grow and little and ask what does the monster do? Does it have special powers? Is it alone? 

Its dangerous you must never go to the house with no number.... 

Years go by, you grow and others ask why you can't go there. You can't answer them. 

You try to get a bit closer to the house to find out running away each time. 

Why go somewhere its dangerous and not safe ... what are you doing?

 

Eventually you get to the house. 

Its the home of a teddy bear who no one visits. 

You go home... 

You haven't been there have you? 

No 

Good its dangerous 

 

The house at the end of the road is a mirror of your own home. You realise the monster is next you. Its mask still in place unaware. 

 

When you keep questioning the mask moves... when its caught out its gone a monster with no mask is not a pretty site. Its full of spite. 

When you leave for the house at the end of the road to meet the teddy bear. The thing no one tells you is you become the monster at the end of the road and all you can do is watch and wait as the house at the end of the road has something you love but it can't approch the house at the end of the street for it has a monster in it. You pop your head out.... see its dangerous you can't be near it, 

And so you wait and wait wondering if the curiosity will ever bring them closer again never knowing for beware there is a house with no name with a monster inside.

 

.... its just not the house you believed it was 

2 months ago. Apr 26, 2020, 1:08 AM

At the end of the road there is a house with no number. 

You darent enter for there is a monster within 

You devise plans with friends who can get in

But no one does.

 

What does this monster do, you want to go monster hunting 

No one can answer for no one knows 

Why is a monster 

Everyone is to scared to find out.

No one knows 

 

You take turns running up and running away.

You must never go near this house. 

Its not safe

Its dangerous 

 

You grow and little and ask what does the monster do? Does it have special powers? Is it alone? 

Its dangerous you must never go to the house with no number.... 

Years go by, you grow and others ask why you can't go there. You can't answer them. 

You try to get a bit closer to the house to find out running away each time. 

Why go somewhere its dangerous and not safe ... what are you doing?

 

Eventually you get to the house. 

Its the home of a teddy bear who no one visits. 

You go home... 

You haven't been there have you? 

No 

Good its dangerous 

 

The house at the end of the road is a mirror of your own home. You realise the monster is next you. Its mask still in place unaware. 

 

When you keep questioning the mask moves... when its caught out its gone a monster with no mask is not a pretty site. Its full of spite. 

When you leave for the house at the end of the road to meet the teddy bear. The thing no one tells you is you become the monster at the end of the road and all you can do is watch and wait as the house at the end of the road has something you love but it can't approch the house at the end of the street for it has a monster in it. You pop your head out.... see its dangerous you can't be near it, 

And so you wait and wait wondering if the curiosity will ever bring them closer again never knowing for beware there is a house with no name with a monster inside.

 

.... its just not the house you believed it was 

2 months ago. Apr 25, 2020, 5:11 AM

When you can't sleep because its too cold. So you want a hot water bottle but its too cold to get the hot water bottle..... lazy dilemmas 

2 months ago. Apr 25, 2020, 5:11 AM

When you can't sleep because its too cold. So you want a hot water bottle but its too cold to get the hot water bottle..... lazy dilemmas