when a thought becomes stuck and it grows in your mind....
..... keeps nagging at your thoughts
it wants you to pay attention to it, it wants you to say yes,
and still your mind screams no
when you are soooo tired you cant sleep...
Once is all it takes to break,
to be swollowed whole,
Once is one to many for most.
One line crossed,
the rest soon follow,
for once you need to think,
not just follow.
Finding one to trust
can mean so much,
It only takes once,
to give so much.
Once is all you need to try,
so you dont die,
if you play the game right
you may just reach the sky.
An example of a message and idiot i had to put up with today, feel free to read (read from bottom up)
My response:
think twice next time you threaten's to make a sub cry as it is a very pathetic man and poor excuse of a dom who threatens to do so, you give us a bad name. very poor go at it too btw
well if thats the case it isnt my idiocy thats at work is it ... now off you fuck. If you want to be left alone feel free to not reply, my time is far to valuable for your tiny ego.
Message:
I really can't tell if you are stupid or just trying to sound cool
My response:
your just digging yourself a whole now...
Message:
I told you I would get to you. The way you talk is disrespectful. If you refuse something refuse it like a lady not using caps like a retard
My response:
yeah, your a (edited), good luck with that, you told me to go away only because you threatened me with making me cry.... such a big man with such a small fragile and pathetic ego.... have fun in life.
Message:
Its pathetic how you try to get me to talk when I said go away. Do you have dignity or are you mentally sick and weak spirted. Do you hate yourself and you want me to insult you? Are you too ugly that no one would talk to you?
My response:
awww your poor wounded little ego, go in a corner somewhere.
My Response:
????? its not me being disrespectful, it is my choice to share my info or not, you have no place in that if you cant cope with it, its not my problem. Make me cry.... hahahahahahaha really ???
Message:
Your disrespect has no limits. Judt go I dont want to say things that would maje you cry. Bye bye
My Response:
No and i have no reason to either.
Message:
You don't trust me that much !
My response:
not telling EVER
Message:
If you don't mind me asking, what do you do.
My Response:
yeah they are not the ones who lose everything we can as well so dont advertise your (edited) it just isnt smart thing to do.
Message:
The rapers, abusers and the fakers hiding behind bdsm
My response:
who ?
Message:
To be fair they stained bdsm for us
My response:
well others may not understand the lifestyle and many have lost a lot in taking part in D/s relationships including there (edited)
Message:
Why?
My response:
sure.... keep that info off here if you want to stay in (edited) just some friendly advice
Message:
I swear I am a (edited to protect identity).
My response:
your not becuse if you where you would 1st not be scared of breast cancer you would know the probability and 2nd you wouldnt advertise that you are (edited) on this site regardless of if your current email is attached or not....
Message:
And when I said research it could be 100% true because Im a (edited to protect identity) and I study (edited to protect identity)
Message:
Im worried. I just discovered I am a woman so I am scared of breast cancer
My Response:
Thank you but no, its just been a bad day xHow have you been ?
Message:
Is there anything I can do to help
My response:
if only, i have issues with trying to let go now and i will for a while.
Message:
You can. Just clear your head. Let someone else take your burdens and take control. There is nothing to worry about
My Response:
if only i could ;)
Message
You should relax
My response:
it is, i know, just had a long day
Message:
I don't ask strangers for nudes. Its disrespectful
My response:
its just that i dont find it too funny anymore, it just tiring now. But yes there are some not very nice people out there.
Message
I was joking about wanting to see your pictures. I thought yoi got that. Being disrespectful like this is not justified nor funny. I wouldn't lower myself to reply. Goodbye
My Response:
honestly just way too many 'doms' asking for porn when they shouldnt it gets old quick
there isnt a change, it was there from the begining. enjoy your free porn
Message:
Why the sudden change in your tone
My response:
nope, i dont need a description, its all just for you, enjoy it
Message
You don't want me describing what I see
My Response:
neither did i until you asked, was you wanting to see, just pull up a mirror ;)
Message:
I didnt realize i was a 26 year old woman.
My Response:
i dont know how about you tell me....
Message:
How do 26 women look like naked hehe
My Response:
sure..... what kind of research ?
Message:
What ! I just want it for research
My response:
very funny!!! :P
Message:
Oh lol so you had wanking materials! Whats your fetlife again hahahaha
My Response:
there is plenty of wank material without pretending to be an insta dom lol
Message:
Some are harmless haha just horny fellas
My Response:
same, so many messages with 'you belong to me now send pics to me' just abusive
Message:
I deleted my fetlife account
My Response:
like wise, i left fetlife for that reason.
Message:
I was for four years but the fakers and the abusers hiding behind bdsm drove me from it a littlr
My Response
im not in it at the moment honestly it sucks, but it is what it is... you ?
Message:
And now how are you dealing with the lifestyle
You are not old and open minded is everything
My response:
wow, i feel old now but yeah, thats gone fast lol. The main part was for 4 yrs with an individual who was open minded, it helps when your both open minded.
Message recived:
so you've been in bdsm for 7 years now
its interesting to see when things have changed
== Results from bdsmtest.org ==
100% Submissive
100% Rope bunny
58% Experimentalist
57% Non-monogamist
57% Slave
51% Brat
48% Masochist
46% Pet
42% Vanilla
38% Primal (Prey)
2% Sadist
2% Rigger
1% Boy/Girl
1% Degradee
1% Primal (Hunter)
1% Ageplayer
0% Exhibitionist
0% Daddy/Mommy
0% Voyeur
0% Dominant
0% Degrader
0% Owner
0% Master/Mistress
0% Switch
Any subs or slaves have any suggestions on how to beat the blues??
i have a mental block i cant get past and could do with some advice, after things going a bit wrong i have a mental block of trust, ive walked away 4 times now from D/s and find myself back here as its basically a part of me but i am clueless as to how to get past this issue, even if its just making friends in rl. Some advice would be apreciated thanks
black poison,
running through my vains,
i dont cry, i just die,
a little and often,
each time
black poison spreading
pumping the sludge through my vains,
the black poision spreads,
faster turning red to black,
The queen of hearts
she laughs
for all that remain are
shards of glass.
brittle, sharp and broken,
Discarded they lie
disjointing the poision that flows,
turning red to black,
The queen sat on her throne,
she laughs.
This is one i had today, after asking for some insight into a lifestyle choice as i was curious and they offered to share that knowledge. I made a point that i was not submitting nor am i currently cabable of it in the way they would need so it wasnt apropriate, that i was interested in there insight. I have a life outside of this lifestyle and i am unable to reply instantly. This is after 2/3 days of no response from me due to being busy.
Annoyance
11/10/2017 16:17
I'm contacting you regarding the minimal contact, you sent me a message and I gave you a reply that was days ago obviously your not serious with your claim nor for answers. I am serious about my wants I am not sure that you are being truthful with me and that upsets me. I hope that you are being serious and that you have a reason for not contacting me. But I will say this if your here just for some fucked up kicks then don't reply.
Hi,
I have started to get some very rude/ inapropriate messages on here. I have decided to post them up for all to see, feel free to have a good laugh. It is also an opertunity to learn how not to aproach a sub.
.... in a land not so far away, behind closed doors was a world no one knew of.
A collar on a hook, but no animals in the house.
so many scarfs too many for one person.
Rope, but no rock climber.
Hooks with no purpose.
welcome home....