After a break from this site i am back again. I always feel like i can cut it out, and conduct a normal, regular, small life and i do manage this for a period of time.
I feel as though i wear a mask. And i am exceptional at it. Sweet, small, quiet. Not over bearing. I can blend exceptionally well and i can fit into any group or situation. And no one would ever know.
No one will know that when i wake, shower and apply my make up for the day, i always picture Sir making my eyeliner run down my face.
When i choose my underwear before heading to the office it is with the desperation and fantasy that Sir might see it.
When i change at the gym i enjoy eyes on me. I train hard, as feelings of pain and exhaustion are comfortable and so enjoyable for me.
There are so many moments throughout my day where the dark perverted side of my brain lights up like a christmas tree. But outwardly you would never know. And you would never guess.
My tastes are unique, and often misunderstood and i suppose that is why i ALWAYS end up coming back.
