Nut up or shut up

I feel like I should just be violent and get my striped suit because I go out on a weak ass limb hanging over socail in crowed and get a membership to a sex club because tired of being single and loanly I mean shit I'm 300+ pounds 5,11 got a lil dick and I'm poor so yeah I'm not pulling to much touch,feelgud,attention and give dam since my wife left me for the bigger dick and that's OK be about it or don't be at all right so anyway back to the club pay 70 bucks to get in this place and all's I get is shity ass mean muggs from the kettle that tell everyone to just be yourself talk to everyone see who interacts or shows interest well fuck that shit intrest is a mutual feeling I'm not a begger unless ya got my nuts tied up and some really kinky shit going on ya know I don't think there's a femdom out there that can get me submitted not that I wouldn't like it but I mean shit truly dominated not this letting shit happen and I know every sub is a hidden dom and some are hidden subs takes some serious thinking to know that or see the angle but feed back is welcome and honesty even with criticism always welcome