Intro: to this Xxy male

I'm so grateful, I found this safe place callled The Cage, Im so grateful for all the new friends and good people I have meet here who I now consider friends, it's nice not being judged or bullied and simply being able to be me. Most of all I'm grateful for this one special lady, I call her Miss, MissRaven has give me purpose here, makes me believe in myself, my true self and for that I am truly devoted and grateful to her🌹. Wishing everyone here at this beautiful safe space a very blessed Sunday! 🧘

My curiously awaiting , will she take my mind transcend or if she would was going to break me in. Could it be that devious grin upon her face, the way her lips move as the tip of her tongue crosses her lips just slightly. Her posture so rigid and that look that could pierce you just right or maybe make that's what's making me more nervous...that grin upon her face makes me wonder could she be, then she licks that tongue across her lips again, she says stand up in a commanding voice, yet in a passionate way, I see a smile coming upon her face , now turn around slowly, slow down she says, don't you understand slowly, yes Miss I reply, good boy now I'm going to ask you something, you don't have to if your uncomfortable but it would make Miss very happy. Her legs cross in the other direction, I like to do all my sessions this way with a submissive, it's makes you more vulnerable, and I can see and comprehend your body language better, so if you don't mind remove all of your clothing and lay back down but with you head at the opposite side away from me facing up and put your head on the pillow. As my jaw drops and I start to trembling, I'm thinking what did I get myself into, can it be I wonder.she repeats herself with you don't have to if your uncomfortable but it would make me very happy, with that grin on her face I hesitantly start removing my clothes piece by piece, oh what a good boy you are, who knows maybe I'll make you my Plaything. As I go to lay down I hear wait... tune around one more time for Miss. I do trembling as I turn because I'm so exposed and erect. Good boy now lay down as I told you. Laying there totally exposed, erect with goose bumps all over my body , she says now close your eyes and please relax. Don't worry I don't bite, maybe sometimes she giggles. So this is you first therapy session, yes Miss I reply, good , good boy I'm glad you came here to find out more about yourself. I hear a swish then the paddle of heels moving closer. Still nervous I jump when I feel her hand  brush across my face, I open my eyes, she is right over my head , I see a blind fold in her hand as she leans in closer and slips it on, I use this for your sensory awareness , now please try to relax, I hear her heels moving about then this soft touch, no words spoken as her hand glides down my chest, my heart is racing, as I feel her had glide down my leg then back up the other as she got to my inner thigh I felt it go away, she made sure not to touch me there. I could hear her sit back at the chair,  she smelled of sweet cherry blossoms in a full spring bloom, I'm trying to picture her in my head, as I hear her say, have you every been under Hypnosis Edward, I respond no, not to worry, I use it a lot, once your under we will use a key word to bring you out when we are done, so first let's start with your breathing,I want you to slowly breath in then exhale slowly listening to my voice, again and again, as she takes me under I feel so relaxed, good I hear again, your keyword is Mistress when I bring you out, and when you hear obey you will be under hypnosis , slow your breathing more inhale exhale.... Obey..... to be continued  

So I break down and book my appointment, it's time to work out all my deep thoughts and my clouded mind !

I arrive for my appointment and check in, the receptionist walks me in and says take a seat, she'll be right with you ! As I await my nerves are getting to me, how do I talk to a women about what is within me, then she appears short in stature, with perfect curves, a smile on her face that relaxed me so, so edward she said move over here and lay on the chase, yes ma'am I reply as I lay down, she says relax, there no need to be nervous, all that you say is safe and sacred with me. She pulled up her chair right next to the chase and sat right next to me, as she crossed her legs I couldn't help but notice how beautiful she was in that white blouse and a tight black pencil skirt, those natural nylons and her black stiletto heels, she smelled of sweet cherry blossoms 🌸 in bloom and my mind went blank. So I I ask where shall we begin and she stated, I'll ask the questions here, my eyes trying not stare, as I heard her say and you dear edward will address me as Miss,  do you understand? Yes Miss I reply,  I took a deep swallow and looked in her eyes, seeing a wicked gaze and deviant smile. I see that you say your a submissive and you have feminine traits, you are here because you wanna know why! Yes Miss I reply ! So let's begin 🌹 ( to be continued) 

My morning rituals are done, my meditation is complete, I worship my gods for their guidance and protection and to cast wholeness & Infinite abundance of energy  and light to all that are here ❤️🧎🧘🧞‍♀️

Going to be a long day today! Back on the road  traveling for the holidays! 1140 miles and 17.5 hours ahead of me , oh how the mind wonders with as you clock the miles away 

Ps . Im not running or disappearing 🤗🌹

I read this somewhere the other day, it's so beautiful for those who battle the struggle of who they are'! Author unknown !

You can be male,

You can be female,

You can be neither,

Or a mix of the two, 

Whatever you are,

Whatever you become, 

You are a beautiful person, 

By being you!

We Are all beings here in this animated universe...as we grow older the labels seem to define who we are, when in reality they lock away our inner child, the innocence of a free mind with no worries, the enjoyment of living freely, loving ourselves, as these labels attach themselves to us we become what everyone feels we should be, instead of who we truly are. We all have a purpose in this life, mine I've yet to find. My daily life demands me to be this strong more dominant person, managing the family business and personal business that life throws at us daily! What the world sees is this strong masculine man, what they don't see is what's my true self! Underneath that masculine mans clothes is a smooth soft feminine soul. I'm wearing my silk and lacy thong, desiring that dominants soft touch, please seduce me with your soft spoken voice, take me back to my inner child, surrendering control of all my thoughts and desires just to for fill his/her desires, take me to my safe place that we call our sub space. For tomorrow I must attach those labels and be the person everyone else Expects me to be .

I took last evening to search my inner child, I found myself feeling that feminine side strongly wanting out, so I embraced her enjoying a glass of wine, a warm fire and the Sense of freedom... a beautiful blissful evening celebrating her and Mother Nature's beautiful universe ❤️🧘🧎‍♀️👗👠