Shadows Den

The wolf is howling in the forest of the night
He wants to, but cannot sleep
The hunger is scratching his wolfen stomach
And it’s cold in his burrow
Wolf, wolf, don’t you come here
I will never let you take my child
The wolf is howling in the forest of the night
Howling out of hunger and moaning
But I will give him a pig tail
That’s what the wolfen stomach needs
Wolf, wolf, don’t you come here
I will never let you take my child

As a child I may have been a twisted strange little guy but if this had been sang to me I would have slept like a log with dreams of my wolves and I running free though the woods in the cool crisp night air.

One day I dream of being in the wilderness with my wolves listening to them cry their howls upon the moonlit night air. That is where I would truly feel at home and at the greatest peace.

Today I learned another lesson the hard way one I should have learned long ago but I seem to be a bit of a slow learner.

That lesson I learned is this Trust is a weapon an you should be careful to whom you allow to have it. This is not a mistake I will make again (I have said this before in the past but I seem to have the memory of a Goldfish)

Go forth and be weary of whom you trust.

The words of wisdom from a old man.

Why the lone wolf howls

The lone wolf howls not to hear his own voice.
The lone wolf howls not to call out to the pack as he is alone and always has been.
The lone wolf howls not to cause fear or fright in those around him.
The lone wolf howls not to mark his territory.
The lone wolf howls because his heart tells him to do so.
The lone wolf howls because he longs to run wild and free with his mate.
The lone wolf howls as a cry out in the cold crisp night air to let his mate know he misses her.
The lone wolf howls because of the pain that he carries in his heart.
The lone wolf howls because he does not wish to be alone anymore.

I am so doing this at my next Hotel stay as I leave

The beast in me
Is caged by frail and fragile bars
Restless by day And by night rants and rages at the stars
God help the beast in me
The beast in me Has had to learn to live with pain
And how to shelter from the rain
And in the twinkling of an eye Might have to be restrained
God help the beast in me
Sometimes it tries to kid me That it's just a teddy bear
And even somehow manage to vanish in the air
And that is when I must beware Of the beast in me that everybody knows
They've seen him out dressed in my clothes
Patently unclear If it's New York or New Year
God help the beast in me
The beast in me

How I got my name is a bit of a story.

Shadow: Comes from my silence when I am around people I tend to stay silent and sit back in the shadows so to speak watching and observing.

Wolf: I have Native American Blood in me (Cherokee of the Wolf Clan on my Mother side). I have always had a connection with Wolves even as a little child I felt this bond with what I call "My Wolves" and have always had this dream of where I am in the wilderness with a pack of wolves and I am running only I am on all 4 running like a wolf.

Dancer: I love the move Dances with wolves and have even seen where part of it was filmed when i was on my way to Rapid City South Dakota.

It was going to be ShadowWolf or ShadowWalker but they was both taken so I went with the name I have now which is honestly better then my Original chat name from the 90's when I first came online which was AXHOLE. In collage I got the nickname of AX and since I had to have at least 3 characters for a name in the chat I thought hmmm Axhole sounds a lot like Asshole which lord knows I can be at times.

We walk upon the beach hand in hand with the warm sand upon the soles of our feet. The waves softly lapping at the sand as we walk by speaking softly to each other the words that we hold in our hearts for one another. We stop and look at the sun as it slowly descends painting the sky with shades of red, orange and hues of purple. We turn to speak and our eyes meet then our lips meet as we kiss out lips slowly part and our tongues softly dance and tease each other. Slowly the world seems to melt away until all that is left is the sounds of two hearts racing in time with each other until they seem to melt and become one heart beat. As our lips slowly part from one another the world around us rushes back in flooding our ears with sounds of the world around us. The waves now softly lap at our feet rolling over and around our feet. The once brilliant sky lit with its Reds Oranges and Vibrant hues of Purple has now been replaces as if by magic with a black curtain speckles with small pin pricks of light. The real world comes crashing back in around me as my alarm goes off filling my ears with the sound of its buzzer. I press the snooze button and roll over before closing my eyes to once more be with you my Dream Lover. Until I hold you in my arms I will hold you in my dreams.

Unseen Eyes

I come to softly upon the night breeze, and gaze upon you with unseen eyes.
I watch over you and protect you as you sleep.
The soft whisper you hear upon the night breeze is me softly calling out to you.
The touch you feel upon your skin that rouses you from your sleep if my touch.
The presence you feel in the room with you is my spirit gazing upon you with unseen eyes.
The kiss you feel so gentle upon your lips is my lips kissing you while you sleep peacefully.
The hand you feel upon you as you sleep is my hand softly caressing your skin.
I come to you as softly and quietly as a feather upon a warm nights breeze and gaze upon you with unseen eyes.

She came home and was tired and he knew this from the expression on her face he knew she had a bad day. Yes he was her Dom but he cared about her and wanted to do something nice to surprise her as she has been working very hard and deserved a reward. He told her to sit down and relax and brought her a glass of wine while he cooked dinner for the two of them. As they ate dinner they talked about their day. He excuses his self and returns a short time later, taking her by her hand and leading her to the bathroom where there was soft music playing, candle lit and a nice hot bubble bath waiting for her. He tells her you are to sit and soak in the tub and relax as he once more leaves the room. When he returns he has a nice warm robe for her and helps her from the tub and wraps her up in the robe and kisses her lips so tenderly. He then leads her to the bedroom where he has lit more candles and had incense burning filling the air with the soft warm smell of Vanilla (one of her favorite scents) and lit bu the warm soft glow of the candles. He lays her on the bed and massages her tense muscles with his firm yet gentle hands. She softly whispers why all of this? He replies Just Because is why Just Because.