I pride myself on being self-sufficient. I'm confident in myself and I know what I can and can't do. I've survived the lowest of lows and come through it on my own. I know I can handle what life throws my way and make it. Having said that I'm not so prideful I can't ask for help when I don't know how to do something and I'm wise enough to try and learn when someone does help me.
At the end of the day though being a successful Dom means acknowledging why you are a Dom. Acknowledging that insecurity that drives you to crave the validation a partner's submission gives me. The fact that someone has made the choice to let me indulge in what I enjoy makes me feel alive. The fact that I'm able to let loose and fulfill these urges because I've earned their trust is so gratifying.
It makes me wonder though....if that's what gives me validation where does it stem from. The traumas of my youth? The fallout of choices I've made? The way I've been treated or treated others in past relationships? TV influence?
More importantly, it begs a key question: Does that make my confidence a facade? And if so what does that say about me? Don't get me wrong....I like me and I like who I am. I'm just indulging in a little bit of introspection I suppose.
