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Ok lets see where to begin .Ok lets start this way i have stsge 4 non small cell lung cancer i also have adrenal cancer i have becam incontinent yes it does suck judge away .now the fun part there are so many people on here that seem to think they know it all with no regars to anyone well how about you pull the beam from you own damned eye before you pull the thorn from someone else's yes i took my other blog down no it was not that they won but i have enough going on with out the goddam drama from here so like me hate me i dont really care im here to stay i have freinds that are here and i will not turn my back on them nor ignore them so guess what i doughnot care.!
5 days ago. Thu 10 Oct 2019 03:58:34 PM IDT

I have and i know we all have lost love and have thought about giving up because we get tired of being hurt by others why do we do it why do they do it who knows we all have had our hearts broke we can give into the hurt and shut people out because if we do we will miss the most important thing we can find love respect compassion it all come togehter regaurless when love does find you and that other person you will not be able to just say no to live because they will haunt your dreams they will always be on your mind so dont stop beleaving in others because of a few idiots we all have made mistakes does that mean we should suffer because of it no forgive and move on im not saying to run back to a abussive person and i know grudges are held the forgiveness is not for them it for us we have to forgive our selfs and love our selfs because if we dont how can someone else just hang in there i know its hard to do but you will find true love .just dont let it slip through your finger tips thanks for reading

2 weeks ago. Mon 30 Sep 2019 08:01:03 PM IDT

Thats a queation not only for me but everyone if you truely want loved then show it if your here for online play say that when we send messages offering help its not to get you i offer a ear advice if i cant give it i will try my damn best to find it .ive seen and heard many people hurt because the other couldnt or didnt want to keep things going ive been hurt hell who has not but its always nice just to have someone listen someone to say hey your gonna be alright to catch you when your falling as a community we all should be there for the other sub dom ect not just ignoring the ones that are hurt think for a min for all of you thinking why should i noone does that for me well you may not have had it done for you but wouldnt it had been nice if someone would have so instead of letting them hurt alone try reaching out it might save someones life .im not pointing finger towards anyone but lets try to come together and help each other and not sit and do nothing .anyway take care to all of you and thanks for reading

2 weeks ago. Wed 25 Sep 2019 06:51:08 PM IDT

What happens when your body adjust to the pain you live every second i dont know about anyone else but mine starts to crave it .it starts to aborb it and it wants more im not talking about pain that you get like leg cramps or falling im talking real pain my body has started craving the pain from my cancer it craves it more then ive heard of or seen .now yes it is scary to think about but god made me this way for a reason not sure why but he did anyway hope you all have a great day 

3 weeks ago. Tue 24 Sep 2019 07:58:40 PM IDT

Ive got two more treatment then i come of the clinical trial and medicade and medicare get to pay the full cancer treatment bill now i get extra doctors as well but at least it has became dormant or stable how ever they want to say it 

3 weeks ago. Sat 21 Sep 2019 06:24:27 PM IDT

Im at work driving the amish when i get home i grt my 2 sons this weekend and i wont be back until monday so ill see everyone later if gods willing take care and enjoy your life

3 weeks ago. Thu 19 Sep 2019 09:25:05 PM IDT

No matter what web site you go to there are fakes scammers ect but the true idiots are the ones who message people saying they are this or that and that person belongs to them .hey morons try actually talking to the subs read profiles get to know them find out if there is a connection .i mean give me a break insta doms or subs truly have no clue what bdsm is about .to the subs who are getting offended by the morons on behalf of the real doms dommes ect sorry you go through it and please do not judge the others because of a few idiots thanks for reading please take care

3 weeks ago. Wed 18 Sep 2019 10:19:26 PM IDT

Ive loved and lost same as everyone here so im only here for my friends now after a massive heart attack 5 weeks ago and the cancer im just not looking any more ill help when i can but i cannot promise a relationship at this poi t if it happens then yay but im here for my friends and to let them know im alive 

1 month ago. Wed 04 Sep 2019 11:48:18 AM IDT

I have decided to leave the bdsm community perminatly and go back to vinilla sorry to all my friends here but all my social media accounts are being deleted as well please take care and i will always remeber you after this blog im deleting this account as well in about 3 or 4 hrs

1 month ago. Tue 03 Sep 2019 04:23:35 PM IDT

It flipping sucks can hold food down waking up sweating your ass off i take tylonol ib prophin and anti nausia pills on top of all my heart pills now so yeah the flu always sucks but its worse in the summer i wont let my son bring my grandson over because im sick he was not happy but understood .i miss my granson alot when hes not around but its for the better anywho vent over 

1 month ago. Tue 27 Aug 2019 06:27:47 PM IDT

I started the chantix 4 days ago i read talked to the doctors what noone told me is it can make some people mean well i found out im one of the people it makes mean no emotions just down right cruel so after today i am stopping the chantix i dont like being the person i burried long ago and neither does anyone else so if anyone ever want to use chantix keep in mind depression is a main concern but it can make you a mean person .im glad i didnt get depressed but i dont like being mean either