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Adventures through the dark side.

My journey as a submissive.
1 day ago. Wednesday, March 4, 2026 at 9:19 AM

One tree reaches wide into the sunlit air, branches soft and forgiving, leaves that whisper comfort when the wind is kind, offering shade and gentle sway, a resting place that asks nothing but the willingness to sit beneath it, to breathe easy in the open light, to feel held without being held too tightly.

The other tree drives deep into shadowed earth, roots thick and unyielding, bark rough under palm, trunk scarred and strong, promising a rest that will test every nerve, every breath, branches that bite back when you lean against them, a height that leaves you bruised and breathless, alive in the ache of being held too tightly.

Both trees stretch toward me with the same quiet hunger, one craving the softness I bring to its light, the other craving the storm I bring to its dark, each one pulling as if my presence alone could make it whole.

I stand between them, hand resting on one trunk, then the other, indifferent to their names or their stories, caring only for what they offer in the moment: the wide, forgiving spread that cushions the exhaustion, the deep, unyielding grip that anchors the ache.

But roots remember only one thirst. One drinks light and reaches for my ease; the other drinks dark and reaches for my edge. They share the soil, the sky, the storm—but never the full promise of what I need.

So I choose the tree that answers the moment's greatest need:

the soft one when the world has already cut too deep, sitting in its shade, letting the gentle spread cradle the exhaustion,

or the sharp one when the pain demands to be felt, resting under its branches where the pressure reminds me I'm still alive,

knowing each rest leaves the other tree behind,

knowing the tree I didn't choose keeps reaching without me,

waiting for the next time my hunger shifts.

2 days ago. Monday, March 2, 2026 at 9:11 PM

Fractured halo, smoldering wings

Defeated choir forever mute

Led by wicked magnificence,

Unholy embrace viscerally craved—

Angelic intent turned depraved.

 

Prayers bargained for corruption,

Answered in consecrated rupture.

Every scar, stain, mark—cursed.

Indifferent, blasphemous thirst.

 

Profane pleasures mock the caveat,

Igniting evils mania begat.

Risking eternities entombed in hell,

Where daemonic desires dwell.

 

Our union summons heavenly wrath,

Sentenced by seraphic jury at last.

Unhallowed vows we dare to make—

A marriage salvation will not take.

 

Damned throne henceforth not afar,

Maleficent Queen of Morningstar.

6 days ago. Friday, February 27, 2026 at 8:10 AM

Predictable ending too soon to embrace.

Desperately praying the calculations are wrong.

Tired of feigning ignorance.

Finding myself once again used to stabilize a lonely shelf.

Another lesson void of a silver lining.

Disappointment claims me - again.

Love clings to a canvas stripped of art.

A story with one too many antagonists.

How can one be taught to understand the unexplainable?

Can the ability to see invisible value be learned?

Only then to be able to appreciate the awe of the bloom?

This pull to search is losing light.

Impossibilities becoming heavy burdens.

Mourning a key that never was forged.

Exhaustion is knowing all future failings.

Every need to concede becomes shadowed.

Ruined by the hunger to escape empty spaces.

Optimism chokes hopelessness,

Reviving the battle to be known.

Perhaps this time their world will be kind.

1 week ago. Tuesday, February 24, 2026 at 5:32 PM

I wrestle dreams that I dread

Numbness spreads within my head.

I will smile, play the part

But slowed is a damaged heart.

Pretending to be alright

While shadows swallow my light.

Laugh on cue, hide what I feel

Standing when I want to kneel.

Lasting, this battle I fight

While withering through the night.

No place, person, have I found

To keep my peace above ground.

Breaking, no space for my cries

This pain carried tells me lies.

Lost in a crowd that won't see

That this world is killing me.

Surrounded, with no one there

Suffocating, fears I bare.

Words that are light, weigh me down

Secrets causing me to drown.

Sadness dampens every sound

Each step, a new failure found.

Love stole away, without trace

Scars knotted, like hardened lace.

I begged, they all looked away

Disregarded, my truths stay.

If I were gone, would they care

Or fill my space with dead air?

Loss leathered a second skin

Tragic war, never to win.

I'm not stable, they are blind

To shattered wants, tired mind.

No single being understands

None hold me, no gentle hands.

Louder I scream, still no sound

Sink deep, never to be found.

Trapped in a cage no one sees

That was designed without keys.

When you pass me, when we meet

I will nod, be polite, sweet.

You won't know, beneath my face

Churns chaos I can't erase

I am here, nowhere near whole

Fading echo, dimming soul

Every second in a disguise

Ashes, faking the strength to rise.

1 week ago. Monday, February 23, 2026 at 2:56 PM

Oh, the fun to be had

Less than a pound 

Delicate silky thing 

Recently found 

 

Intoxicating pain

Soft red velvet 

Love losing its safety 

Enticing net

 

Deliciously spiraled

Beautiful bruise 

Granted pleas, pleasures stolen

Begged for abuse

 

Every fragile line crossed 

Blank voided trust

Secrets, dead promises 

Smothering dust

 

Forged weapons from sweet dreams 

Used to destroy 

The games that I will play

Shiny new toy

1 week ago. Friday, February 20, 2026 at 6:58 PM

No purpose to struggle

Blinded by hopeless light

Surrendering to madness

Heavy shadows, pitch night

 

Pain pilfered, returned ash

Stumbling over lost love

Ignoring soft healing

Passed by safety above

 

Trapped into the fall

Imprisoned by secrets

Scars that strangle tightly

Drowning peace in regrets

 

Seeking all that vanished

Yesterday stole whole hope

Tomorrow ruined dreams

No escape, knotted rope

 

Abysmal existence

Deafened, no verity

Despair tricks, silenced joy

Feigning a parity.

 

Wasted good intentions

Draw the blood, now it flows

Embrace the emptiness,

Stillness, and no one knows.

1 week ago. Friday, February 20, 2026 at 6:37 PM

Do not love me yet, for I

Am still a slender moon,

A scimitar about the heart

Too sharp to touch too soon.

 

Before I'm touched I need to grow

More full in golden light;

I need to smile upon my earth

And rule some patch of night.

 

I need to know what roads and fields

Lie in my domain

And dull my brand new ecstasies

With sophomoric pain.

 

I need the love of some blank boy

As cold and dark as me,

That we might grope in ignorance

A fear of what might be.

 

And then, when I'm a silver bowl

And know what I can hold,

Then, then, perhaps, we could try love

If you're not too old.

1 week ago. Friday, February 20, 2026 at 1:02 AM

Dreams do come true, but only when

They make it through despair,

Limping into everyday

Transformed beyond repair.

 

No dream would be a dream if it

Could pass for something real,

Nor would we sail for paradise

Would it it's shoals conceal.

 

So it is with love; the dream

Long longed for, now possessed,

Must be a dream no longer, but

An emperor undressed.

 

Stark naked it must come to us

In unaccustomed shame,

And we must take it in our arms

And love it all the same.

 

And we must love love as it is

That dreams might still come true,

Mangled into miracles,

To make our lives anew.

1 week ago. Friday, February 20, 2026 at 1:01 AM

For the hurt that I've done

I am sorry

I am careless with hearts

It's my nature

 

Selfishness resides here

Loneliness bound

Mischievous malice 

A thoughtless thug

 

Blind are egos like mine

You are faultless

My desires are simple

You were not weak

 

The only mistake was me

Wrong lover loved

You are perfectly real

I am a fraud

 

Wishing for you bold love

Filled with truth

Respect Everlasting

Not one of greed

 

Heart moved on long ago

You unaware

An eternal cycle

Disparate soul

2 weeks ago. Monday, February 16, 2026 at 8:18 AM

Give me the pleasure 

In the form of pain

My skin remembers

Leave marks like a stain

 

Slut, is what you say

Name that makes me wet

Scratches down my spine 

Take me like a bet

 

You are my weakness 

Voice cuts through my soul 

No gentleness, no love

Command, my knees low

 

Brought to that sweet place 

Forever I could stay

This is where I thrive

Where I never pray

 

Demand to obey

I'll be your good girl 

Yes Sir, devotion

You are my whole world

 

Whispers, my sweet death

Lifting then crushing

Vows that are binding

Leave my blood rushing

 

Use my fears to heal

Steal breath, take my air

Fill me with consume

Always take me there