I want to make this my place where I can confess my deepest sexual deviances....ive been fighting this inside me...being a good monogamous wife...with secret desires... but now that we are done, I am free to explore...ive been exploring with my online following. Recently, I started a private snapchat story...I enjoy nurturing the relationships that I've cultivated....and I especially enjoy it when I've turned a man on....sometimes with just how I look at them. It has been a long time fantasy to have a man or men jack off to me....so I don't do this for money...(even though I do need to figure out how I'm going to support myself after leaving my husband)
I really enjoy it when a man sends me a dickpic while he's at work...and I've inspired him to jerk off in the bathroom or in his vehicle. This is because when I tried to send dickhead husband sexy pics, he said he didn't want to 'run off the road' ...and I found out he was video chatting with his only fans fat (and I mean OBESE) bitches so didn't need my pics...other men seem to appreciate them just fine though. (I've lost weight and feel sexier than ever, and husband LOOSES interest! Ain't that a bitch?!...so im gonna encourage every lady who feels her man dont like the extra pounds...believe me, there are others that would LOVE it....my husband, for one...except, you still may not be fat enough...he likes em BIG...like I used to be 100 lbs ago)
I'm always trying to remain positive and look for the good or find humor in life...but sometimes it gets me down...so on my private story, I asked them to send me a pick-me-up dick pic...a DICK-ME-UP. and with every one that I received it put a smile on my face....and did the trick.
There is one man who I am not at all attracted to...but I enjoy asking him how many times a day he jacked off amd whether he thought of me...I enjoy telling him to jack off when i please.
I sometimes think I'm sick...but I know that I AM somewhat and I like that about me now. And I also know there is others that appreciate and desire that as well. I've been isolating and hiding for so long...im a chameleon...I can become what you need or want....I know I would make a VERY good submissive for someone very strong...because I am probably bratty...and pretty sure I'm also quite dominant...so I'd switch...(not sure how that works but im ready for training)
I dont know all the things I'm into because I've been submissive to a narcissistic but insecure man for so long...I feel like I wasted my sexual peak years begging for deep satisfaction from the mental part.. I want someone to fuck not just my body...(thats been pounded plenty)...I want to have my mind fucked while every hole is filled.
Oops...is that too much? Have I scared you away?