i did dream of you, ironically.
we were running, as fast we could
you had to pace yourself to my slower gait
but we weren't going to be beat
we ran and ran
sometimes hand in hand
as the tears would fall
and our fear would engulf us
renewing our passion to keep our pace quick
and true
where were we going? who was chasing us?
who fuckin' knows i just woke up haha that's all I remember
lying desolate
weighed down and kept
wanting
sweet release provides no relief as my daydreams run away without me
leaving me trembling and dripping with want
arching back and thighs clenched
nothing soothes the ache left in want of more
am I not?
or am I only
a fantastical version of who lives in my dreams
the desire within me threatens to burst me at the seams as I contemplate
fold by fold
opening myself to the world within
flipped inside out
in search of pleasure
and you
a new expanse lies ahead
over stretched and taunt against the framework of my meager understanding
as I lie here longing for the sin of your touch
the dark desires of your twisted mind
I dream also of an endless softness
pillowy promises between two captives
forbidden reverence
the liquid touch of your skin against mine
almost a violation of our shared devotion
reminded of your place
as you kneel before me
and deliver my daily prayers
thighs cup your ears as you whisper your commitment
to care, to please, to comfort
my only desire is to look into your eyes as you violate the rule of law
and ruin me forever
a line you would never cross
a punishment neither of us could handle alone
my legs tremble against you as the peak of desire rises and falls within my satiated sex
the vague feel of the leather against the palm of my hand, the snapping of your lead
clutching you closer to taste myself against your lips, through your teeth, on your tongue
the cold metal cage grazing my skin and you move around me tenderly
freeing you could be so easily
taking something that doesn't belong to either of us and sharing it in an act of regrettable indulgence
maybe we want to be punished
maybe I just want to see you squirm
was never really one much for cocktails
even when the stinging
eyes and
throat burnt raw
listless against reality and the wake of
overt imitation
volacious whimsy trickling through the cracks
escaping psychic visions
silently begging for a warm embrace with
in the fickle confines of my ragged heart
constrained against itself, broken at the seams
keep back! for soon the jagged pieces may be your undoing
here we are again
alone together
and trembling with anticipation
void and devoid
nothing awaits us with wide open arms and
the stringent promise of bliss
oblivion
lifted weightless along the water line
we are washed ashore
anew
maybe not needles
but also probably not butterflies
who's to say really
as time goes fleeing
flighting
passing by
ideologies
collide
but nothing
comes alive
as we dive deep down
enveloped in the sacrament of surrender
buoyed and bouncing on the hope
the hope
that dangles fear out of reach and cross the boundaries
ill defined
Oh, to laze around with you.
Lay your head on my lap darling, while we await our lover.
We can pamper each other in the garden and drink from the fountain as we count the hours to our undoing.
Speak softly to me while we prepare each other for the divine
Let me tease you mercilessly to soothe my nerves, lover
As we lose ourselves in the shadow of something grand
Imposing
Eviscerating
As insignificant as a foot stool
But you're my favorite piece of furniture
Propping me up when urgency has pushed us farther
Holding my gaze as I lose myself in your ecstasy
The culmination of our servitude bringing us all into each other
Enveloped by mutual destruction
each word
thought
action
races through my mind individually
like so many lines of code
indecipherable
familiar
cold
raw edges frayed, yet there is no rest in sight
no reset for the weary
all viable options are dusted
oblivion is more welcoming than suspended animation
something defined and paved over
embraceable
solid
and sure
sure
how i wish i could be
certain
some sense of finality
somewhere i belong