I woke up today feeling good, believe it or not. I had phone conferences with the psychopath, my mom, and my friend Shay last night and we are back on track. The last time a Dom treated me bad I was all fucked up for weeks. So I'm getting stronger and I am very grateful for that! Looking forward to my Atlanta trip!
I decided that I am done with internet dating unless it's that one niche specific vanilla website for tribe members. And I'm not even ready for that right now. The last time I mentioned it, people flagged my post for discrimination against non-tribe members so that's all I'm gonna say. You know there are non-tribe members on that site too you jerks!
I decided to quit weed for awhile and focus on fitness. I'll still eat edibles if it is that time of the month, but otherwise, I need more clarity. This makes me a bit sad because apparently Arnold Schwarzenegger used to get high and lift, so I've always wanted to try it. But I took a new contract job and I haven't messed with java in awhile, so I have to be sharp until I get the hang of it again.
I want to work with the puppy and do more cooking. I learned from a Moroccan Israeli woman, so that's my main cuisine. My ex-husband is Moroccan Israeli and his mom taught me. He is not the psychopath - the psycho is a ukraine born jew. Yes I speak Hebrew and can speak some Moroccan Arabic but they are both rusty as hell. I know a bit of Russian and my daughter is fluent. I am not fluent by any means.
I'm going to take a break from blogging for a week or so to focus on other things, but I'm not leaving. I think writing is therapeutic for me, but the interacting with other people is stressful as fuck. Shay and I were discussing this yesterday. From my side, I see things and I want to get to the heart of it and figure it out to understand. It's hard for me to just pretend like shit doesn't exist and to dance around it. For example, I'm from NY and I live in the Bay Area and there are a lot of social problems here. I can't just walk over a homeless person passed out and pretend I didn't just do that. I want to talk about it and try to help out if I can. If someone says some stupid shit I'd rather discuss it with them than fire them from their job. Like that situation with Kanye and Kyrie. They fired Ye because Adidas was a nazi company. Be mad at the nazis and their modern day supporters, not some guy with a mental illness who said some stupid shit out of ignorance. He wasn't there. Just my take. I still love adidas originals and wear them all the time, so I'm obviously a hypocrite hahaha
I'll be surprised if some soft a-holes don't delete this. I'll be back in a week. I will write a post about what that guy taught me to avoid in the future, but it's a minor miracle that I'm not that butthurt so I want to ride this wave while I can. Be well everyone and be careful out there!
