EDIT: I came back to add a hyperlink for the term friar because people I like are texting me on my cell all confused. BTW, I'm not sure if the kids are still using this term, so YMMV (not sure if the internet nerds still use that term either). OK I'm outtie.
Abraham gets it. I'm not always in the vortex though. And I hate talking about 'high functioning' and 'low functioning' because that is bullshit to some degree (but I understand why people say that stuff and sometimes I make that distinction too), but I think the fact that I have a kid and am court-ordered to live in this area if I want my kid to live with me sometimes (whole other story) makes me choose to leave the vortex to chase money and 'fitting in'. I get that it's a choice I make, but i'd feel a hell a lot safer if I could be a homeowner and not have to go to an office and still make enough money to never have to eat noodles again and buy as many shox and air maxes as I want. I believe Abraham would say that the power to feel safe comes from me being in the vortex, and I can respect that.
And people who tell me to go back to Israel: I can't go without my kid, I'm not a deadbeat mom. I haven't learned Israeli tax law yet so they will fleece me like a friar and it's too fucking hot there. I love it there though and I hope we can all figure out our shit and get along at some point, but there's just too much political and religious BS power struggles to fix things probably.
Free Yak btw if his awesome lawyer didn't already get him out. Prison is fucking stupid. Part of the reason I came on here (other than being an equinox freaky - shout out to ye) is that I thought doms were like David Goggins or Gary Vee and wanted to make people 'harder' and stronger with some freaky sexy time mixed in. The ones I got involved with seemed to just want to weaken me instead and they were even weaker than weakened me if that makes any sense at all. I don't think everyone is like this here AT ALL so snap on me if you want, I'm reading and listening and trying to learn more about communication. Plus I'm Ray Charles to that argument because I don't really care what you think about my sexuality.
I put in a 15 hour work day yesterday, I've been secretly learning some other tech shit and I don't like it that much. So I'm getting stoned today, now that I'm back from my run and will probably study later. Have an amazing week folks. I'm so grateful that I don't have a case of the Mondays right now homies.