It's Tisha B'Av so I'm writing this sitting on the floor in my non-leather shoes and I've been fasting since yesterday. Not working either today because it is seen as a dangerous day to be doing anything but mourning. We are not supposed to be going on to BDSM internet sites on Tisha B'av, writing or manipulating electronics. I do take this religious stuff seriously, but like most other religious people, I'm a hypocrite. I believe in G-d and I am a person of faith, I just don't want to comment on whether or not I think G-d cares if we do the most towards worshipping him if we can't get our own shit together as humans. And as an autistic person I can exempt myself from pretty much everything mitzvah-wise if times get tough so I'm going to gan eden haters.
I do reserve the right to switch my opinion and be an uptight frumer than thou a-hole at any point. I'm also working on being a better liar in case I must battle my psychopathic ex. The fucker is a diagnosed psychopath, don't get mad at me and he has consented to being in this blog. and we have a great relationship as long as you people don't tell him I'm learning manipulation techniques to defend myself! He will laugh but then he will plot harder. Thank you.
I didn't post my social anxiety video from the other day because I actually left the house to watch the baseball game and got faded. Then I rapped "earned it' from sosa while I was walking home. It was too embarrassing to post even for me. I've still got ego left and the social anxiety therapy formula seems to be a delicate mix of breaking myself down while preserving my unfounded and ridiculously high self-esteem.
Anyone who is fasting or is logging on later after fasting I hope you had an easy fast.
Here are the SF Bay Area travel tips for the dudes who keep wanting to visit me out here. And for the five guys who said they would move here to be with me, lol. Highly recommended. Not posting a hyperlink so y'all can see I'm not trying to hack you (that shit's real though and be careful folks - download ubuntu for starters)
https://www.youtube.com/shorts/1HuZpBsSo7c
What I've learned from this Tisha B'av is to not be jealous of others, treat people as respectfully as I can handle without getting annoyed and giving others the benefit of the doubt.