I'm a little sick again but I think it's just allergies getting to me and making me congested. So no ten mile run today which has been messing up my schedule and pissing me off. I'm not as schedule-obsessed as you would think I'd be so they are vague and sparse but I need that guiding light. And it's beautiful outside. I'm going to listen to study and hang out at home until I feel better. I hate slacking on my exercise and beauty routines because I go hard on my interests, but health first obviously.
I'm starting Rosh Hashana prep a bit early this year too so I don't get blindsided. Rosh Hashana, sukkot and purim are my favorite holidays.
I've got a couple of dating experiences lined up this week and I'm exhausted just thinking about it. Two dates. These are vanilla guys but one has a sense of humor and doesn't seem like he'd get all weird about sexual stuff. The other guy is not an internet guy he used to work with my ex. He is a doctor from the FSU so he's got two strikes against him already. I don't tend to get along with medical doctors. He is smart and maybe he will surprise me. And we went to the same two schools at mostly the same times, which is somewhat unusual. And you guys always get pissy in my DMs when I say this, but I like that bro is Jewish.
Apparently women are supposed to date a bunch of guys at one time, which is something I didn't know or ever try to do before. So I'm trying and I'm exhausted just thinking about this. I would like to have sex with one of these guys, but apparently I'm not supposed to do that either if I like them? My friend is teaching me dating rules and this shit makes no sense whatsoever. I hope going on two dates next week is not going to kill me. I should probably postpone one, but I'm feeling ready to actually find a guy that will indulge this doll shit or at least not be totally weirded out. I can wait another couple of years though too, no rush. But why not admit I want to experiment and actually try? There's no downside at this point and I'm confident enough that some sneaky predator is unlikely to fuck up my mental health too bad.
"All the aunties they talk about me
How I know? 'Cause my mom told me" - Saint Levant