--- just a random thoughts ---
I think I've had enough trying to keep up with the people here. A few months ago I tried so hard to fit in. Tried to please everyone and I don't realize how much that put me under stress.
I changes personality like a chameleon to the point I don't even know who I am anymore.
So I stop, took a breath and step back. After a long break and reflection, I finally found myself. I understand more about how to do things while keeping my mental health. And the most important thing is to stay true to myself.
I have to keep reminding myself "it's okay".
It's okay if the others don't like you,
It's okay if they think you're immature
It's okay if their topic is too hard for you (you're 21. How could you understand topic about married life problem. Come on girl!)
Now I'm (a little bit) wiser and stronger. I may not be as mature, as wise and mighty as a lot people here. But I'm growing in my own time, and I believe I'll become a beautiful flower when the time is right. As for now, this little bud will keep striving for the best.