Simple Chaos

Where is a Captain when you need one.

Without a compass, a port has been spied.

Yet with no Caption to guide,

The crew may yet loose their courage and drown.

“Lay your head on me” Major Lazer feet. Marcus Mumford. 

When you're numb to the touch

You cannot chase this ghost away

And this too shall pass, this too shall pass

It won't always be the same

And every single scar that you claim

Is a stone in the path to this place

And every single choice that you made

Has led you this way, so lay your head on me

Lay your head on me

Lay your head on me

Lay your head on me

Don't be afraid, love

And I can see it in your eyes, love

And your secret is not safe with me

You can spin through the night, with your powdered mind

But don't cover up your scars for me

And every single choice that you made

Was a stone in the path to this place

And every single cut that you claim

Has led you this way, lay your head on me

Lay your head on me

Lay your head on me

Lay your head on me

Don't be afraid, love

I said it's okay, it's alright

Someday, we will be fine

Staring down the long night

Waiting for the sunrise

It's alright, it's okay

I've been there in your place

It's okay, it's alright

Just lay your head on me

(It's okay, it's alright)

Lay your head on me

(It's okay, it's alright)

Lay your head on me

(It's okay, it's alright)

Lay your head on me

(It's okay, it's alright)

Don't be afraid, love

Love me some Marcus Mumford from Mumford and Sons. It’s the 3rd and 4th verses that get me snatched up…. My little girl would look up at me on them rough days and say, “Mommy, don't be sad, it’ll be okay, tomorrow will come and be a new day and it’ll be a happy day.” She wasn't but 4 yrs old. Today is her 7th birthday. Any of unz that know me…..know that its gonna take all I got and some real help from the Gods to keep me from burning this fucking world to the ground today. Most days I don't mind being alone. I’m naturally a solitary person. But today……I’m raw and bleeding….really wish I had more than this cold pillow to lay my head today. It’s a really great song. 

Every choice you made,

Every cut you claim,

Don't hide your scars from me.

And that last line……kills me….

Don't be afraid love

…..

Hope unz enjoy 

Love and Light to you and yours.

Are we scared to see the bigger picture,

Scared to dream of how good can good be.

Dare to imagine such could be for me.

Why believe in dragons and such myths,

Only the Gods know,

And time will tell.

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This should not be this hard....I mean I have gotten on here and made a fool of myself plenty of times and that was easy....lololol

I need some advice from an experienced female slave, yet being the solitary creature that I am, know none....I know a few sub females but no slaves. And the one woman I am looking for....am unable to contact due to my nonpremium status. I am in the thick of it, so to speak, with a Master and I have questions I want to ask but don't know how.....and I really want to do this right and not mess it up. If it doesn't pan out or ends up being a bad choice I want it to be because it isn't a good fit not because I didn't ask the right questions and ended up biting off more than I can swallow....lol pun so intended. And I don't even know if the questions I want to ask are appropriate...which you would think ......

So if you are a female slave with real life 24/7 365 M/s experience or know of one who might be willing to spare me a little time I would be forever grateful.

Love and Light

Stone

This popped up in my queue...at work in my earbuds...did a number on my emotions.... 

First heard this song on the radio at work...instantly fell in love with the beat and rhythm...and I could only make out a few of the lyrics. So not knowing the name of the song or who sang it and never having time to really pay attention to it while at work, I came home with its rhythm stuck in my head. And I tried every way I could think of to type it in to YouTube music to try and find it to no avail. Even downloaded different apps trying to catch this song. Finally...by complete accident I found it. I did this one right, (being a music lover) Put my earbuds in, turned volume up to the perfect level and hit play, knowing this song was mine. Cried like a baby...yup my song. Only the party is my life and the confetti is all the isolation I do to "keep myself safe". Had to share this. Not to mention being a dance freak....hell of a beat to move to.

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I’ve got a good one for you lovey dovey ones out there…or…in here..? 🤔

Anyways…The group’s name is Sidh. Celtic/Electro music. The song title, Alba. (Link down below) They are a group from Italy that have more than captured Celtic music. Bringing old traditions into the new. I found this group back in 2021. In 2022, I experienced the most absolute and wonderful feeling EVER!! Many have tried to put this feeling into words and rhythm, but few, in my opinion, have succeeded.

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Y'all getcha minds outta gutter…..or…..in the gutter..?🤔

Either and Or..

So, in 2022, for about 7.333 minutes, I felt utterly and unconditionally Loved. Any of you who have been bored enough to read my blog may have heard me mention Indiana…as in a dude from IN that had a bit of an impact on my life awhile back. And there was a fraction of a moment when I wholeheartedly believed that this man loved, accepted, cherished, craved, yada yada yada… That was when this song really became something to me. This track, the way it made me feel when I’d hear it, was that feeling.

Was it fake..empty…false…

The man and the fiction he projected was.

Having a small taste of what that feeling is, was not.

Now, when I connected the two in my head I KNEW that this track had to have been written by someone truly and madly In Love.  Pagan that I am, and knowing what I do of the Irish Celts I purposely didn't Google the name of the track because I didn't want or need any contradiction….(The Gods made me stubborn 😇😝) When curiosity got the best of me..I knew that it was a meant to happen kinda thing. Me associating the two. 

Indiana is long gone. My blessings, and curses go with him. But, that feeling…remains. In that I know it exists. I know it is out there and possible. And still today, that's what that track means to me. A fraction of a feeling. A gift from the Universe, and the Gods and Goddesses that rule it.

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I’m purposely not gonna tell y'all what the definition of, Alba, is. Try giving it a listen and let me know what ya think. Did it convey that kinda feeling for unz?

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Hope you enjoy!

Love and Light

  I heard this song a few days ago and I just had to share the memory it brought to my mind.

  I was around 16, and there was a small, tight group of us from the neighborhood that always hung out. So, new girl moves in about a block up from my best buddy, Mike. As soon as he laid eyes on her, he was lost…. LOL I remember thinking,  Oh Hell…Karma is on her way. Mike was a good looking guy, funny, personal and charismatic. If he hadn't been in the best friend box…..That and he was also kind of a slut. Like most dudes, he like to fuck… the hunt for the ever lasting nut, I call it.  And he didn’t care if he broke a few hearts in his quest, after all, “females ought not be so damn sensitive…”  I did try to warn him.

Anyways, being the good wing chic I was, I befriended Trisha, gathered a little Intel and talked my boy up some. Couple weeks later….there they are, walking to the bus stop together, holding hands. They went hot and heavy for about four months. By then, Trisha had gotten to know her way around, no longer the new girl, she made other friends and soon became bored with my buddy. And yes… he did get his heart broken. Even though I wanted to say, “I told ya so,” I didn’t… I even cussed her a little…stupid cunt didn’t deserve him.. He really did love her….and for a short time, she was head over heels for him.

I remember one night in particular,  I was watching him get ready to go pick her up, they were doing something special…I forget. He was taking his time and putting some extra effort into looking and smelling good…..

   The shirt he picked out..she really liked cause she said it made his chest look..yada yada.  “...she likes this one the best…yada yada.” I hear right before a cloud of cologne engulfs me and steals my oxygen.  “Got a new razor…feel..” he says, thrusting his jaw at me..

  And to me…..that was sexy as fuck.  A goodlooking muther fucker, getting his self ready for his woman…that high of cock sure man pride she had him riding on…. doing these little things to make his already hot little woman, even hotter for him…. 

It's hard to articulate but, MAN!!!! That's some of life's good stuff.

   It was different  from watching him just get ready to go out, which I’d done countless times before and after.  

  There something to be said about a muther fucker when his woman makes him feel pretty.  LMMFAO!!! I hope y'all enjoy the song.

Gorgeous

   By: X Ambassadors

I’m watching a podcast about dopamines , which leads to the discovery of other, related topics. So that's where I’m at ... .and I’m watching about, BPD. Borderline personality disorder. Firstly, the stigma, and misconceptions, of this disorder has led to the persecution, cruelty, and death of many, many people. They aren't being burned alive and tortured so much nowadays, but they are still being misunderstood, persecuted.

Here is what got me. This disorder GREATLY impacts relationships. Not just the person who has the disorder, but the other person as well. 

Here are just a few symptoms, descriptions of someone with BPD.

-Fear of abandonment

-Unclear self image

-Rapid swings from idealization to devaluation, anger, and hate, leading to unstable relationships

–unclear or shifting self–image,

-Impulsive, self-destructive behavior

-Extreme emotional swings

Imagine a 3-4 yr old who is really upset at having been separated from or facing separation from a beloved caregiver, and this child is really coming unglued, becoming both clingy and complaining, or clingy and punishing. They want, very intensively, for the caregiver to stay or come back, but also angry at the caregiver for separating. 

is normally a very sweet, interpersonally engaged, very sociable temperament. Combined with lots of sensitivity to what's happening outside of them and what's happening inside them. And oftentimes has a fair amount of anxiety. 

 Constant insecurity 

A drive for reassurance as an external source of internal stability.

Convert that into adult form and you have a small idea of what's going on with a person with BPD.

There is so much more to it, but I am trying to keep this short and sweet. And of course the disorders extreme vary from one person to the next.

Here's my question…. Someone who is aware of and has a good understanding about their disorder and the challenges they face in forming relationships, are actively looking to make new friends or date. Online or otherwise, at what point do they disclose their disorder? It really is a must have, make or break kinda conversation. I wander the same about other things like mental illnesses, impairments or disabilities, ECT.

IDK, just something that got me to thinking.

I appreciate unz for reading,

Love and

Light

The platform for which my feet are planted on, 

continues to tremble and shake.      

The abrasive and chaotic noises from ahead quicken my         pace. 

With a song that never changes and is yet  never the same,

 Here is another one I must face. 

Still, one more gauntlet to be raced, 

 more tears to be bleed, more demons to be chased.

[side note

“..........you’re not just gonna scrape by, by the skin of your teeth,  you are going to nail the landing. You’re gonna bewilder and amaze your audience and you’re going to do it without breaking a sweat.”

                                              –Indiana

“.....out of all of us, if any of us make it out of ‘this’, it’ll be you.”

                                             –Indiana