Okay, so I have to get something off my chest and the only place I can unburden myself of this particular thing is here. So here it goes...
I AM FRUSTRATED 🥴. Physically..and so much so that it is starting to mess with my head. It has been quite some time since I've... well..been railed truly and properly. It's not from lack of opportunities. I've had plenty of offers, you can call them. But from... I don't know.. vanilla, not quite my type men. While I may be somewhat attracted to them, it's not enough to have that heat and ...??..that I need/looking for. And I fear for my sanity. Here lately at work, when an attractive man comes through my line, my dirty little mind immediately starts conjuring up wicked fantasies. And my body goes haywire. By the time I get home, I'm a shaking hot damn mess. And damn me, I be go to hell... manual labor just isn't cutting it anymore. And worse still. Today as I was stocking the candy and snack shelves... I'm holding a box of slim Jim's. The long skinny ones😏 My mind is already twisted at this point..lol. So I pull one out of the box, stared at it a moment, looked around to make sure no one was watching, and then wacked myself across the thigh with it. Now I'm not a masochist, but I do like a certain amount of pain/discomfort. Well I initially wacked myself too hard yet as the pain faded into a nice sting.... I proceeded to test the slim Jim against my thigh a couple more times till I hit my happy medium. I immediately dropped it on the floor and walked away. I had went and done it now I thought. Because for the rest of my shift my jeans brushing against the tender welts kept me wet and achy. So now I'm thinking I've either officially developed brain damage from being impossibly frustrated OR I may have created a new kink... maybe both.... Who's to say at this point. I do know one thing..well two. I'll never look at slim Jims the same again, and that I probably should avoid them from now on...
I appreciate y'all letting me share my dilemma and am grateful that there is a place to share such hilarious desperation.
Love and Light to you all
H