Sinful & Sweet

She's a dark, little artist with ink in her veins
She's been through the hardest, but prospered from pain
She appears to be heartless, surrounded by flames
But through all the darkness, a lover is chained
She's nerdy and sweet, but she's dirty underneath
If those flirty eyes could speak, lustful thoughts would release
'Cause she hates that she loves so hard like a disease
It's left her with all these scars no one can see but me
Her mind is a beautiful thing
You never quite know what she thinks
But if you're lucky, she just might let you see
What hides behind nightmares and dreams

I guess I am old school and by this I mean I learned the first part of being interested in someone to be in the dynamic you enter the consideration stage… Things have changed and now it's vetting…  Asking questions to get to know them and their kink like What are their limits? What form of BDSM do they practice or want in a relationship? Do they practice in real life or online only? What are their views on safewords? Basically getting to know them in-depth and seeing if you have a connection with them. I guess that makes sense in a way. Communication is the key to everything. It’s how a foundation is created. Communication can be tricky and difficult. To clearly and accurately communicate one first needs to understand what it is they are trying to explain. Knowing yourself what you want, need, and even what triggers you. It is crucial to communicate that with someone clearly and help them understand what makes you tick. The other beautiful part is being able to understand the other person clearly as well. This can take time and trial and error to learn how to communicate together and be able to grow. Once that happens then the next part of the journey begins… Blending the needs, limits, and kinks/fetishes of those involved into a clean and clear roadmap is wonderful to be involved in or to watch. It is a masterpiece.

Its sad that I think I'm fine then I read a book and all the issues that I’ve kept in a box start pouring out like pandora's box. Now here I am trying to put them all away... so minus well break down this issue... I miss having a Daddy… I miss it so much it aches every inch of me…. Being a little and a kitten makes it difficult because people either see one or the other. Hardly it is ever seen as one. 

I was asked What is it about a Daddy that appeals to me?  What would I get from it? What do I enjoy?  What is my little side like?

I am not entirely sure how to answer some things but I guess I’ll write and let the flow hopefully answer all of it. I’ve always known I had a little side the parts of me that don’t want to adult and serve everyone and just want to enjoy the moment. When I’m in little space which isn’t often since I need to feel safe. I enjoy watching Disney movies and eating little food like corn dogs, French fries, chicken nuggets… food made by my daddy. I like to color and cuddle with my stuffies and I usually still wear my pet gear in little space and have snacks in my kitten bowl. It's the things that make me happy. I like forts and playgrounds… When I have a daddy I feel cherished and safe. I feel loved deeply because I know in my heart a daddy knows how important and precious their little one is. I like that daddy’s are teachers and mentors they don’t mind a curious mind and they enjoy answering questions and expanding their littles knowledge. Calling my Dom Daddy means I feel safe with you and have the biggest amount of trust in you. I have no doubts that you will take care of me like I take care of me or better. I dont doubt that you have my best interest at heart. No one is perfect and things happened but I know that you will properly communicate with me and make sure we overcome everything stronger. 

Being a daddy is hard because they have to be strong for their littles but as a little, we are strong for our daddies too. This lifestyle is a two-way street.