Where to even begin.
I've lived a interesting and eventful life. I've been thru tribulations and trials. The old Chinese Proverb of may you live in interesting times is so very true for me but yet so very much a curse. People don't seem to think that it is a curse but dear god is it. It to most means you live thru points of change in the world and that is true. Look at the world today for case in point. I'm 35. I've lived thru 2 major economic depressions, a world wide epidemic, at least one war possibly as many as 3 or more depending on how you want to count them, 5 or 6 presidents depending on if trump counts as 1 or 2, mass riots in cities across the nation and across the world, multiple popes, and God only knows what else added to that list. And that is not my personal life that's just the world at large.
Dear God no wonder I'm a exhausted mess. Then my personal life can be just as bad. My entire family dead before I'm 30, a coming divorce and a bunch of other crap I'll not mention.
So here I am after all that questioning what is the point. What is the point of trying to find a new sub or slave when I am just exhausted but also knowing that if I do I'll feel better. That it will reinvigorate the spark that the world has tried to smother for years.
So here I am writing a blog maybe 1 or two people will see. But that's not the point. The point is to have a place to write down my journey and maybe find the motivation to keep going in this lifestyle.