Abyss

The most common question asked:

What are your fears? 

Express them. You will feel better. 

Lies. 

I feel exhausted. 

To express is to relive. 

What keeps you up at night?

My father beating me until I am a grape.

You have to work through the trauma. 

No, I don't. Fine. It is painful...I don't have the strength. 

More Lies. 

I survived. 

I can breathe. 

I can see. 

I can feel.

I can do this. 

What keeps you up tonight? 

The foreign hands on body,

roaming without permission,

taking...taking...breaking...stealing

my light, my security, pieces of me. 

What keeps you up tonight? 

A broken pea fallen from her pod

a silence creating a divide

will it be repaired? 

Do I want it to be?

What keeps you up tonight? 

Jolting from dreamland

Deep wounds,

Red streaks from my neck to arms

fade with time. 

You must forgive yourself. It was not your fault. It is not your fault. Forgiveness is key to release pain inflicted onto you. Let go of guilt. Let go of blame. Let it go and forgive. 

Now, that will keep me up tomorrow night. I am a work in progress. 

                   What keeps you up at night?

I love the rain.

I love the downpour,

the magic it contains,

making a crowd disappear

The brave ones stay

I walk, jump rope, dance in the rain

My first love kissed me in the rain

I don't care if it is cold or summer rain

I love it all the same.

Be brave with me.

Pound me to rhythm of the rain,

Let us make our own music:

my moans, your dirty talk

creates something unimaginable.

Our bodies will warm each other

No eyes in sight.

Gather the ropes, flog, spank me

Do what you wish

I've been waiting for you...

Waiting...

To play in the rain with you. 💋

Dear Life Partner...

I am going to make you an offer you can't refuse....😈

Let the record show: I am aware "what goes on the internet stays on the internet". Today, it will work in my favor. I can be indecisive at times, but this is a must, an absolute, LP. 

I want a kinky surprise each week. 

What is a kinky surprise? You ask.

New position, kink, toy, outside or inside,

Any given time 

An unexpected delight,

Keeping in mind hard limits;

 And yes, Each Week.  

We will make mistakes

Learn what does and doesn't work

We laugh trying to build, install, construct

                     Take me to Heaven,

                     Fuck, let's go together

                     My body is yours.

                      I gave consent.

You said:    You are safe.

                     And I believe you. 

                         I believe you. 

                            I trust you. 

                          I trust you so...

Whether reward or punishment I want a kinky surprise. This is binding by vows, love and faith in us. I am right. It is an offer you couldn't refuse. 😈. 

I come from strong women

One woman who raised 12 children 

 Alone

One woman survived 20 years of domestic abuse

 Moved, built a new home for two daughters

One woman made her money work for her

Came from nothing

All women have power. 

Kneel and kiss my shoe. I am a Queen. 👑

👑 You are a Queen. 👑

So...A Submissive...Has power?

Hell yes! I am not a submissive (yet), but I will roar. 

Set the terms, command her/his attention, set your limits, rise to occasion, use your words, you have power. Know yourself first, love yourself, be yourself. 💕❤💕

Weak Men.

The ones who abuse. 

The ones who take, not give. 

The ones who shout out of anger.

The ones who jump to aggressive behavior.

The ones who think they are entitled to own, not earn.

The ones who gaslight, manipulate, use dark psychology. 

You know who you are. 

Hear my promise.

💋We will eradicate you. 💋

There is a quiet in the darkest moments

             a light shines

             resilience wins

For a moment 

              then the pain creeps in 

               sorrow springs 

              a cancer strikes 

In Your Body

              are you home?

             out of body experience

              do you know what is next?

That saying: 

            When Life Gives You...

            When Life Gets You ....

             Life is...

Nothing but Bull. Believe what you want. 

             They aren't living my life. 

             Each struggle is different, solution varies.

            In the end, you decide what way to live. 

Go live. 

                                        First....

... lie
...generation
...sex toy

  ..."of all, no one told you to wear your socks over your pant legs. You need help." 

First time cheating
           Girl with rhinestone bracelet IS a rat.
First dollar as entrepreneural genius
          Not yet, but a goal.
First kiss
         Your lips soft and passionate
First Mistake
           Make more, don't be afraid to fail.
First Lesson
            We have to grow.
First pause
         Common sense? Are you home?

     Think. 🤔 💭 

Remember the first. Remember the last. Remember I am enough. Experience. Learn. Move forward.

Me: Be better than yesterday. 😇

Also Me: Take me as I am! Deal! 😈

"All jokes aside, don't tell me the way that I feel
'Til you're inside, you won't know what's lies and what's real
Or if there's something wrong
Assuming the things you hear 'bout me's a done deal
There's more to us than what we choose to reveal or what we don't
See, behind these walls, it's different
You judged off these minor glimpses
I'm still the same old kid you used to know

       Song by: Quinn Xii

I have layers; most people only see one or two.

The connection is nonexistent.

They judge, putting me in a box.

I smile,

because in that moment I decide to leave you where you stand. 

You are not worth my time. 

Listen to songs that bring you joy,

make you dance like no one is watching,

sing until your lungs burst,

start a discussion,

speaks to your soul. 

Live for today, in the Now. 

You have survived 100% of your hardest days for a reason.

I sit with this insatiable urge

I fidget with my fingers entwined squeezing, in anticipation 

I tolerate the noise of Instant Doms, in

search

I roll my eyes at the bullshit, tricks and futile filler questions

Take your time, get ready for me as I am preparing myself for you.

Mentally, Physically, Emotionally.

I have patience

I have time

I am young, lively, beautiful and eagerly waiting, to be of service.

Waiting for your hands,

your direction,

your knowledge,

your body,

your soul.

You.