Daydream & Night Thoughts

Someone dear to me say this and I love it so much

Quoting him :

Life is not a race. The only one you're racing with is yourself.

If you still comparing yourself with other people, ask yourself "if I reach that place, then what?"

No matter even when you already have what they have, if your mental state is still stuck in the "race", you'll never feel enough/satisfied

Start feeling grateful for the things you have and have achieved this far. Enjoy the process 

Happiness is a term. It's a moment, not something we can chase. If you tackle each day with gratitude and joy, you'll feel happy and that's the state we want to achieve ❤️

Brb reminding myself this everyday

actually this is a personal journal, but I decide to publish here as a reminder for myself and I wish this could be of some help to whoever reading.

someone here told me this (multiple times):

"your comfort and trust is the most important thing"

and they're very patient with me. even when I'm being very indecisive. that.. really put all of this into a new light for me.

I believe there's many good genuine person out there, we just have to be patient :)

and guess what sucks? I actually become a coward and push that person out. because I feel things won't work out, scared of the future, confused on what I want, so I don't want to waste our time to explore more. I actually cry hard that night. lol. talk about when the heart and mind didn't match.

so this is a reminder for me. to be brave and take that leap of faith.

why got scared of the things that hasn't happened yet? I regret not trying and letting my cowardice win.

but then again everything happened for a reason. if things didn't work out, well-- that's a lesson learned.

also a big shoutout to the one who told me this. you know who you are! stay kind, wishing u best of luck

as for now, more self help I guess. I'm still figuring myself out, what I actually want and need. andd I hope everyone have a great day ❤️

be kind to others, and also don't forget to be kind to yourself! 

Just recently I took interest in self photography. Usually I'm the one behind the lens capturing the moment.

and suddenly I thought hmm why not take few pictures to put into my profile? To fresh start and practice the aesthetic I want

I'm actually a VERY VERY SHY person. Hate to be the center of attention, prefer to listen more than talking. And especially awkward in front of the camera. But surprisingly I had fun aha

I try to embrace my curves and not be ashamed in it. 

For this one I got the word 'tease' in mind. Like a balance between clothed and showing skin but not too much. Not sure did I nailed it? 

Now I'm actually looking forward to when the next idea strike. Maybe a concept with more preparation  ❤️