actually this is a personal journal, but I decide to publish here as a reminder for myself and I wish this could be of some help to whoever reading.
someone here told me this (multiple times):
"your comfort and trust is the most important thing"
and they're very patient with me. even when I'm being very indecisive. that.. really put all of this into a new light for me.
I believe there's many good genuine person out there, we just have to be patient :)
and guess what sucks? I actually become a coward and push that person out. because I feel things won't work out, scared of the future, confused on what I want, so I don't want to waste our time to explore more. I actually cry hard that night. lol. talk about when the heart and mind didn't match.
so this is a reminder for me. to be brave and take that leap of faith.
why got scared of the things that hasn't happened yet? I regret not trying and letting my cowardice win.
but then again everything happened for a reason. if things didn't work out, well-- that's a lesson learned.
also a big shoutout to the one who told me this. you know who you are! stay kind, wishing u best of luck
as for now, more self help I guess. I'm still figuring myself out, what I actually want and need. andd I hope everyone have a great day ❤️
be kind to others, and also don't forget to be kind to yourself!