There are days I wish I could just shut the world off. Even if it was only for a minute. Silence can be a good thing. Even in the darkest of time, silence can be found to have a comfort of sorts. I don't always understand the way the world works. I watch life as it happens around me. Sometimes I find myself in awe, sometimes in tears at the chaos, and sometimes I am silent in the beauty.
Today, I find myself just silent. My mind so overwhelmed that for a time I suppose it will just remain quiet. Undisturbed by the chaos around it. Though, why do I feel like I'm slowly losing my voice, the person that I am. My mind it's just quitting. Like we've reached the climax it's all downhill from here. In the background you can almost hear that lost innocence screaming for me to come back. Why is the world the way the that it is? Why do we go through all these trials, pains, heartbreaks.... Is it all defined for a few perfect moments or is there some bigger picture that I cannot yet, see?
I'm so confused, frustrated, and utterly alone in my views of the world and the joyful horror found in it. Brainwashed, is how I feel, Lost is where I am, and hope is something I barely see. Perhaps I am just tired perhaps not. I think someday the world will eventually shut off, or maybe it will be that I shut off from the world.