Releasing What’s Inside

I start my day with His voice

Always so full of power

A sound my being craves

Every second of every minute of every hour

In my moments of weakness

His voice keeps me strong

That sound that vibrates

Inside me like a beautiful song

My busy and chaotic mind

Tends to be extremely loud

His voice makes it quiet

And always lifts that cloud

My fears and doubts

With His voice they disappear

With only a few words

Everything is just so clear

When He speaks

My attention He demands

My body, soul, and mind

Will always obey His commands

So, you see, it’s for His voice

That my heart will always beat

And now I know my place

Was meant to be bowed by His feet

Thank you Daddy for never giving up on me, for always believing in me, for seeing more in me, for being patient with me, for loving me!! ❤️❤️❤️

Yes! After 14 days (but who's counting) of being without and patiently waiting...I finally got a task today!! I am totally doing my happy dance...well...I'm dancing in my head. Tee hee! 🤣🤣🤣

One year ago I posted my first blog. I still remember all the emotions I felt while writing it. I was so overwhelmed. I have grown and evolved in this year as well. I have been involved in my local community. I attend educational events and have met some wonderful people. The more I experience, the more I learn. I’ve learned and discovered things about myself. I’ve come a long way since my first blog and I look forward to discovering much more. 

“Yes, please.”

He nods and starts to set up. He opens the suitcase and my eyes glow as I see it all. My heart skips a beat as He meticulously lines them all up. My concentration is broken by her voice. “Are you sure? Are you ready for this?”

“Yes, I am. I want this. I need this.”

She smiles and starts to undress me. I look at the way she lovingly folds each piece of clothing. The touch of her hands always give me chills. I close my eyes and breathe her in. I am fully naked now. The night is chilly and she makes sure I am warm under a blanket as we wait for Him to finish. She then walks me to the bench, helps me position myself correctly, removes the blanket, and gently kisses my lips.

He leans over to me and whispers, “Remember the safewords?”

I nod. He runs His hands from my neck to my lower back. “Good.”

It’s soft. Almost feather-like. Slightly touching my skin. The pace is slow and steady. My eyes are open and I watch her go to her spot. I’m anxiously waiting for the next one when I feel the change. This one is a bit more firm. It’s the one He made Himself from rope. I recognize it. The butterflies in my stomach are out of control as I know what is next. He stays with this one for a bit. As I’m wondering when He’s going to move on to the next…there it is…His new flogger!

It’s light at first. He slowly increases His speed and strength. Mmmmm….yes! That delicious sting. I can feel my bottom getting hot. Harder now. He’s not moving from that spot. Please move to a different spot. No, don’t move. That burn…so sweet…so spicy. I move my ass to let Him know I am good. I can hear His growl. Such a beautiful sound!

I can hear her breathing. She’s standing to my left. Paying attention to my every movement. I know she is also handing Him everything He needs. One look is all that is needed and she knows what to do. She smiles as she hands Him the next one.

Thud! Yes! I smile as I feel the second hit. He’s starts a rhythm.

Right, left, right, left, both.

Right, left, right, left, both.

Right, left, right, left, both.

Right, left, right, left, both…both…both…

I tighten my mouth. He’s changing His rhythm.

Swing, swing…THUD!

Swing, swing…THUD!

Fuck! He’s using more strength. This time He’s moving around from my bottom to my legs. Swing, swing…THUD! Thud…thud…thud…thud…thud! He grumbles under His breath. I know what that means. I move my ass for Him. He needs to know I am good. I forgot to let Him know. Thud…harder, faster. I moan and move my ass again. I can almost hear Him smile.

His pace is slowing down. He stops. My ass and legs are on fire. I feel His hands on me now. Such big and strong hands. But His touch is so gentle. The warmth of His hands and the heat from my skin feel wonderful. He’s rubbing my soar bottom and my red legs with one hand. He caresses my back with the other. I’m enjoying this moment because I know what will follow. He’s taking His time. There goes that growl of His. I smile and prepare myself.

Slap! Shit! It was harder than I expected.

Slap! Fuck! Even harder this time.

Slap…slap…slap…slap…slap! He stops. I quickly move my ass. He rubs me and whispers in my ear, “Good girl! You’re such a good girl!” I moan. I can feel Him slowly move to the side of my thighs.

SLAP! His hands are so strong.

SLAP! They’re so big…they cover my entire thigh.

SLAP! He’s not moving from that spot.

SLAP! SLAP! SLAP! Fuck! Yes! More!

I moan loud as I move my ass for Him. He’s satisfied. He increases His speed and strength. He slowly moves upward with every slap. He’s on my ass now. “Count to ten,” He commands.

SLAP! “One.”

SLAP! “Two.”

SLAP! “Three.” Sweet mother!

SLAP! “Four.”

SLAP! “Five.” I close my eyes tightly.

SLAP! “Six.”

SLAP! “Seven.” I can do this. I can do this.

SLAP! “Eight.”

SLAP! “Nine.” Just one more.

SLAP! “Ten.” I made it. I did it. Fuck, my ass is throbbing.

He leaves His hands on my ass with the last one. He starts to press harder and squeezes. He does this until He sees my breathing settle. Then He gently starts to caress me. He leans toward me again and whispers, “Such a good girl! Daddy is proud of you. Does Daddy’s good girl want more?”

I shake my ass for Him in response.

He kisses the top of my head and squeezes my ass harder. I feel Him move to my right. But He never loses physical contact with me. My heart races. I know this position. I know why He moved.

STING! There it goes. The cane. She knows that’s what will bring me to the edge. She whacks me again and rubs me down with the cane. He is now rubbing my back.

Whack! One more time. He runs His hands up and down my back.

Whack! She’s going down my leg now. His hands never leaving my body.

Whack! This time harder than the rest. He grabs my sides.

Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! They are both in sync now.

Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! She’s on my legs and He’s on my ass.

Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! Fuck! The sting of the cane. The thud of His hands. So much going on at the same time.

Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! I need to move my ass. Am I moving it? I can’t think.

Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! I’m moaning…no, I’m not. I’m crying.

Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! My tears are hot. I can’t stop them from pouring out of my eyes. I don’t want to stop them.

Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! The pain. Fuck! The exquisite pain! More tears. Yes, more tears!

Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! Shit! Fuck! Stop! Don’t stop!

Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! No more! More! Fuck! Fuck!

Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! I can’t. I can’t anymore. I’m breaking down.

Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! I’ve lost my words. Safeword…what is the safeword? I can’t think clearly.

Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! Whack! Slap! I’m sobbing. Sobbing uncontrollably. Where are my words? Why can’t I find my words? Then it stops. It all stops. What happened? Where am I?

In His arms! I am in His arms! He picked me up. He is carrying me. Embracing me with His arms. My safe place. But it doesn’t feel right. Doesn’t feel complete.

He sits me down but never leaves my side. I feel the blanket. Soft, warm, and familiar. I feel her arms around us now. There it is. I’m feeling better now. I’m feeling right. It all feels complete now. We stay like that for a little while. Not talking. Just holding each other…the three of us.

The silence is broken by His voice. “I am so proud of you. You have been such a good girl. Both of you have been so good tonight.”

“Thank you, Daddy!” We both say in unison. We smile.

“Everyone enjoyed the show. Now, let’s go home so Daddy can take care of His girls.”

Dressed and ready to go. Now...some music for the road...

Hope you all enjoy the songs. Have an awesome day! 

XOXO,

Missub

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How am I supposed to survive an entire week when I barely made it through this day?!?! 😢😢😢😢😢💔💔💔💔💔💔

When you pray for what you want and your prayers get answered with what you NEED...

Sometimes the clarity we ask for is not what we expect to get. 

So...I tell You “I love You”...and I tell You often. In fact, I tell You so often that sometimes I wonder if You ever think I’m saying it out of habit. I wonder if You ever roll Your eyes and think to Yourself, “There she goes again. How many more times is she going to continue to say it?” Lol! 

Well, I want to tell You that I always mean every word of I-LOVE-YOU...every single time I say it. From the first “I love you” of the day to the very last one...I always say it (and mean it) with every breath I take, every beat of my heart, every cell in my body. I will never tire of saying those three magical words to You because they are real and true!!

 I LOVE YOU MORE THAN YOU CAN IMAGINE!!

❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

Thank you to all those who have taken the time to read my thoughts and feelings. May your day be filled with lots of love, laughter, hugs, and kisses!! 💞😃🤗💋

XOXO,

Missub

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No...not those three words. 

I’m talking about another set of three words that most people don’t understand the power they hold. Or maybe they do but don't care if they misuse it.

”I’ll call back!”

Three simple words that have the power to immobilize someone until they receive that call back. It’s a promise of good (or maybe not so good) things to come. A small promise (maybe not so small to some). But a promise after all. 

I cherish every call. Every text. Every form of contact we have. Whether we are doing good or bad or trying to figure it out. I look forward to hearing from You ALWAYS! So, when You tell me You will call me back...know that you stop me in my tracks (mentally, emotionally, and sometimes physically) until I hear from You again. My brain stops functioning the way it should because it gets consumed with the thought (the small promise) of You calling me back. I lose my breath. My heart beats too fast from panic. My anxiety goes out of control. 

But...well...the thing is...

I’m still waiting for that small promise...those three words you spoke to me last week. Then you text me, “Tomorrow for sure”. That was two days ago. I’m still waiting for “tomorrow”. Is tomorrow ever going to come? Or will You continue to keep me in the dark and only feed me “small talk” texts here and there? I love You! I miss You! I miss Your voice! I NEED to hear You!! 

Honesty always, right? Always the truth, right? Say what you mean and mean what you say, right? Then why do I find myself waiting for days for You to call me back??

So...I say to all of you out there...

If ever you tell anyone you will call them back...keep your promise. Because you never know how exciting it is for the person on the other side. You never know how much that call back means to them. But if you know you’re not going to call back...then I beg you all not to say those three words. Broken promises are damaging to the person that holds you dear to them.

Thank you to those who took the time to read my words. I hope you all have a wonderful evening or morning or afternoon. 

XOXO,

Missub

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It’s when you your boss hands you a copy of the Task List in the weekly meeting (even though your job has nothing to do with anyone else’s but he wants you to feel included).

It’s when someone (no one you’re close to at all) comes back from vacation and brings you back a little trinket because they thought of you. 

It’s when someone shares their sub (sandwich) with you and you notice they asked for black olives because they know you like them (and you know they don’t).  

It’s when you’re having a horrible day and someone comes back from lunch and got you a light up snowman to “brighten” your day. 

It’s when you get a random text from someone special to you and totally makes your day. 

It’s all those little things that we all remember and appreciate most. Thank you to all who have ever made my day and put a smile on my face (and in my heart) with “the little things” in life. 

XOXO, 

Missub💖💗