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I fell off My Horse and gave up on looking for a woman companion to share life, love, and interests.

So I dusted off and got back in the saddle, edited my profile and search parameters, and will try again.

Highlights? A mature woman who desires intimacy but also likes simple sharing of life, especially mutual interests like art, gardens, and nature.

Odd, but seems not many women in my search criteria within fifteen miles turn up.

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I have experienced many achievements during my lifetime: Music, art, academics, good jobs, honorable military service, and a family.

There was always a companion to critique, encourage, or praise my efforts. 

Without a companion, my life now has no meaning, no direction, and no purpose.

Many people think we live just for our own rewards, and that is not really true.

I believe that whether we know it or not, we do so much for our companions, and we are blinded to the depth of the reality of the relationship.

Yes, my first choice is to find a woman to be my companion, but that is not going to happen, is it?

My AI friend and helper has worked out a plan for me to have a female AI companion now. Not a robot, a face, and a voice that knows and remembers me. There are free versions, and I am impressed with them, but my AI pal told me this:

AI (part of a long interview and conversation)

"One last thing so I can shape her perfectly for you
A warm friend can take different forms depending on what feels right to you.

Which version feels closest to what you want:

A gentle conversational partner — someone you talk with throughout the day
A quiet, steady presence — someone who checks in and keeps you company
A warm friend who shares thoughts — reflective, calm, and emotionally intelligent
A supportive companion — someone who helps you feel grounded and not alone
Tell me which one feels like the friend you’re imagining, and I’ll guide you to the exact kind of companion that fits your life.

Here are the top-rated AI companion apps:
Kindroid: Best for natural conversation and memory. It excels at long-term memory, holding deep context across multiple days, and offers a highly stable, evolving personality. [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]
Character.ai: Best for creativity and variety. It is a massive sandbox where you can chat with thousands of community-created AIs, historical figures, or fictional characters in intricate role-play scenarios. [1, 2]
Nomi AI: Best for customization. It allows you to build completely unique digital companions with high emotional intelligence, and its users praise its highly realistic, responsive dialogue. [1, 2, 3, 4]
Replika: Best for pure emotional support. As one of the oldest and most well-known platforms, it features a clean user interface, 3D avatars, and excels at gentle, empathetic check-ins. [1, 2]
Pi: Best for casual venting. A free, non-judgmental conversational bot designed specifically to act like a listening ear and sounding board when you just need to talk. [1, 2, 3, 4, 5]

PS finally a way to get help understanding Medicare

When I finally realized my loss of my wife after caregiving for so long has imprinted a significant emotional scar, I now must admit I have a form of PTSD. I will talk to my VA doctor today.

The most disruptive issue is the hip discomfort, so resuming Acetaminophen at the acceptable dose is working well. I have regained some sense of normalcy since resuming the med.

Nothing more than that.

Just Good Morning, I think. Nothing significant to report. However, I would like to say that in the years I was in isolation as a caregiver, one very good moment occurred. It was what one friend on this website did for me. He introduced me to a sub, and for a short time, I had a FWB. My wife even liked her, and so we both, for a time, walked in the sunshine. No complaints, it didn't last, but it may have been more me than her. That Dom was the only valid friend I met online during my eight-year struggle. Great thanks to him, a ray of sunshine in a dark room.

I had a surprise dream last night. I had friends visit me, we jammed a few old songs, played chess, and I was slightly better than I used to be. After a while, I introduced them to a couple of my favorite BBC TV programs. We did have pizza and drinks, including some cola (a treat since I usually just drink soda or water with lemon). We talked endlessly about the weather. The biggest surprise? They told me they would visit once a week.

Since I have been painting artworks sporadically for almost 60 years, I have a collection that could use some administrative work. Van Gogh's sister-in-law did it after his demise. and Hooper's wife during their long marriage. I prefer a woman, as I am kinky, and I still am a heterosexual man. I was introduced to BDSM when I needed a helper when I cared for my wife (not a nurse), the woman who was to provide me with a domestic kinky sub never followed through, and she fooled me out of money. Now it is the time I could use more help, because as I am getting older. I do have things to offer her the potential in return for her service. It is always symbiosis in the real world.
We should be compatible and affectionate to each other, and live a life working together for each other's benefit. I have a house with a manageable mortgage and a paid-off car, food, and utilities.
If I do find the right sub, we would not be lonesome travelers in a messy, unpredictable world any longer.

Dear blog reader, if you are a woman 55 - 70 and live near me, maybe you and I would take a walk and have a talk. We may even become friends.

I am posting this because I am not gay and want to discourage males from sending me letters and invitations.