The Culture that has been here all the time

I just reawakened. I didn't survive three marriages, several jobs, and failed businesses. I gained strength, knowledge, and self-control. I removed the cloak I was willing to keep wrapped around me to honor the commitment to my late wife because I was with her until her last moment. I now see that that is a definition of one of my successes in life, and I am glad that I have made it so and become this strong. It is time to exert my power and grasp life with a new fervor.

I resumed guitar playing and singing, and even wrote two new songs. Now to work on them for publication, as I had before I willingly became a caregiver. I still collect royalties and hold a publishing license. I write, arrange, produce, and master using my abilities and skills.

I dusted off some of my artist materials and supplies (even bought a couple of things I needed). Sketched a charcoal face of my late wife, plan an oil color project of tiny wild flowers, and intend to draw and paint nudes now that I can without complication.

This past week, I overcame the loss of money because I made the mistake and let nefarious and devious people take advantage of me(thinking they were women, but they may actually have been men masquerading). 

My childhood should have warned me, as I ran away from home at 15 and became streetwise in New York City. Still finishing High School, tech school, and even most of College with honors. I even enlisted and served with honors in the US Army. I managed stores, led music groups, and supervised a technical staff at a university media center. Survived a failed heart without a transplant, and at 78, ready to start everything all over again.

I am not bragging I am voicing a commitment to rise from the ashes once more like a Phoenix. (pixabay images) (Yes I am a Leo)

The Right Woman for Me will help me wrap up my life in the east and help me resettle in NM. NM is the State I have visited most in the Western US, and I am serious about moving there.

"Retiring in New Mexico offers an affordable, culturally rich lifestyle with a cost of living roughly 3% below the national average. Popular for its sunny climate, diverse landscapes, and low property taxes, the state is ideal for active seniors. Key, affordable retirement spots include Rio Rancho, Roswell, and Silver City."

I always loved its diversity and the wide open spaces, the four seasons, and the people I met were very agreeable. I might even resurrect my art studio there. Does anyone want to take up my offer?

I can not remain like "a Rock Stuck in the Ground" A fellow songwriter always says it better than me: You Move Me.

"This is how it seems to me
Life is only therapy
Real expensive and no guarantees
So I lie here on the couch
With my heart hanging out
Frozen solid with fear
Like a rock in the ground"

Songwriters: Gordon Scott Kennedy / Pierce Ray Pettis, great words and harmonies.

I have lived decades of therapy, and finally, I convinced doctors that I really was bipolar, and that has made all the difference in my life. Even through the challenging eight years I was a sole caregiver, I managed to be on an even keel. It also helped that I was trained in Cognitive Behavioral Therapy (CBT).

Enough explaining.

I am also recovering from financial mistakes, and that is a limiting constraint, but as people often say, "life is too short to give up." At my age, it has greater meaning to me than to most people.

I attempted to upgrade here so I can add images, but so far, though I approved the transaction, it hasn't been validated.

Again, life has burned me alive, and I must rise from the ashes like the phoenix.

THIS IS THE MOST IMPORTANT INFORMATION HERE ON A BDSM WEBSITE: I AM OPEN TO EXPERIENCING A RELATIONSHIP WITH A DOMINANT WOMAN. I hope I can meet her and an opportunity close enough in order to avoid financial travel challenges.