This is a poem I wrote some time ago. Ive recently been reading some of my old writing and thought it was halfway decent. Thought a few people here might relate to it. ❤️
I am a girl alone
Choking on the smoke of the bridges I burned
Tripping over the obstacles I laid to keep everyone away
I have trapped myself behind walls.
Walls I once thought protected me but instead they are now my prison.
I am a girl unknown
I slip behind a mirror
let my reflection live in my stead
She plays me very well.
Sometimes she forgets she's not me
And I forget I'm not her.
I am a girl afraid
Jumping at shadows
In fear of the dark
Afraid of raised voices and quick movements
Afraid of living and dying both
The monsters in my head call me a fool
And like a fool I believe them
I am a girl in denial
I fear the past
Dread the future
And spend each day attempting to live like it matters.
I close my eyes like a child,
against the demons in my head.
“If I can’t see them they can’t see me”
As they laugh in my ears whispering my worthlessness into every corner of my mind.
I am a girl who is lost
Searching for answers
Grasping at explanations for why my reality can not be.
I stumble through life
Wasted on fake enthusiasm and breathing in the toxic fumes of cigarettes.
Each day hoping it will be the last.
I am a girl who lies
I lie to my friends
I lie to my family
I smile to their faces
And cry when I’m alone
I lie about who I am
I am a girl who wants her world to stop spinning.
I am a girl who wants peace
I am a girl…