I’ve never been great at saying what I want…
Personally, I blame the neuro-spiciness but also, it’s because I suck at actually knowing what I want or what I want to do.
I can never make decisions for myself, and for fucks sake am I indecisive.
In fact, I would probably drive most of you poor doms crazy from my wild and rando personality.
What I’m saying is, I’ve always been told to “-use my words-“: and words are hard for me in any given situation. Just because I want something doesn’t necessarily mean I am always capable of asking for it, or even really wanting it for that matter (Exhibit A of the Indecision).
Sex and kink included; I have always been drawn to the super “do now, ask questions later-“ type. I’ll even be man enough to admit that it’s gotten me in trouble more times than not, but to not have to rely on the whole egging and begging and pleading deal~ thats an ultimate fantasy of mine.
To come home from a long 12 hour shift of codes, and getting thrown up on- to a nice hot shower and frilly Lingerie laid out on the bed with his favorite perfume… a glass of wine, and a note with what he wants for dinner tonight….
I’d serve it to him and kneel, head on his lap as he praises me for working so hard and doing so right by dinner; hell, maybe a treat would even be in order ;)
Funny, I think I just used my words there~
XOXO
BUN🐰🩷