One of my favorite things to do is rest my vibrator on my clit so it can be hands free, then I look at porn and smoke weed until I'm mindless and stupid, and after hours of teasing myself I let myself push over into an orgasm. The thing is, I can hardly ever convince myself to go that long. It happens way too fast for my liking: I'll be enjoying myself, but I see something that turns me on so much I could cum any second, and how do I tell myself no? Usually, I give in and finish, but the fun is over, and the potential for torturing myself is gone. I'm aware that every time I resist that temptation, the reward is huge, but I still give in to the impulse.
I often prefer to masturbate alone, so it's not like I have anyone to keep me accountable. It gets especially difficult when I'm high and just want to feel good. I have found that if I get in the groove of things, I can last a long time. It's just the first 20 minutes to an hour that are the most difficult. Any tips would be highly appreciated.
P.S. I'm writing this with my vibrator on looking for help and also to distract myself from how incredibly close I was