9 months ago. Saturday, May 3, 2025 at 3:10 PM
Sometimes I’m at war with myself. Between wanting to be objectified and super submissive, to wanting to continue to have the freedom in being my own person and making most of my own decisions. But when I want the former I go deep into wanting that. And I know exactly what to say and how to act. Yet I eventually want to come out of that mindset and be a person again. I’ve learned though that just going back and forth is hard and sometimes it’s easier just being told to stay in one or the other. But now after many months of living the latter. I truly don’t know which is better for me.
anyway all that to say is life is rough and I need a helmet.