Recently I have been struggling with the idea that I am not enough for myself and if thats the case how can I be enough for someone else especially someone I love? I don't have the answer but I was reminded of a poem that I had written a few years ago when my life felt like it was imploding. This poem speaks of being held. By whom is not fully stated, I let it open to interpretation based on what the reader needed in that moment. For me when I wrote it I was chasing after the unconditional love of a father that was constantly telling me that he was disappointed and that I could do better. The poem is a raw reflection of feelings that I try to ignore and get past. My writing is going to be a bit messy and not very well done like some others I've read but it is mine and I take pride in that. So without further ado this is Wrap Me.
You wrap me in your arms
Pulling me closer still
I listen to your heartbeat
I know that it beats for me
But I have fallen so far
Rebelled with everything in me
I have broken my heart on the walls of independence
But you come and you hold me as I cry
You set me on your lap
You remind me of mercy
Of the Grace that you bestow
Grace the name you place over me and call me by
I doubt that it’s true
But you hold me still
Telling the reasons that I am
I am yours nothing will change that for you
I can deny it or doubt it all I want
But it doesn’t change
So I sit on your lap
Listening to your heartbeat
Wrapped in arms that are pulling me closer still
And I know despite all my running
I am home