Once the other situation ended, my old Gorean Master found me online again. We started talking and eventually move in together for a time. Things went fairly well for a little bit, but then he started to change. He became less dominant and more comfortable with a more vanilla type of relationship. This was okay for me as long as he still kept some dominance..
But then..a while later, my heart broke when he asked me to collar him. Now before you all start trash talking, everyone is different and everyone likes what they like and also, I do not have a dominant bone in my body. When he asked this of me it completely crushed how I saw him. It ruined the image of him I knew, the person I thought he was. And while I realize people change and I did try to adapt, he told me I was horrible at it. We went our separate ways not long after that, but it wasn't easy for either of us.
He eventually was married to someone as was I..and we kept in touch. Then one day I was trying to find him to see how his wife and he were doing and found his obituary instead. And though we weren't together, when you've spent that much of your time and life with someone, it's surprising to find out own your own later that they're no longer here.
RIP Max..
And so... since that time I have been unable to find another dominant to fill this void that was formed 15 years ago. But life goes on, and so must I.