2 weeks ago. Wednesday, January 7, 2026 at 5:10 AM
Another night without sleep. My cortisol levels are through the roof. I wish I had brought a sleeping aid with me. But alas, there is no sleep for the weary. No rest for the mind.
I miss him, even when I am supposed to be relaxing and enjoying myself at the beach with my friend, all I can think about is missing him.
How do I just shut off a mind that is constantly going long enough to sleep a few hours? I know the crash will be horrific. The last time I went days without sleep, when I dropped from exhaustion I slept 12 hours. I will need a sleeping aid tonight otherwise the drive back will be brutal.
I thought the walk on the beach and the fresh ocean air would help me sleep. I was wrong.