If I were to place a personal ad- update for what I'm looking for in the lifestyle
(not currently looking for a dominant,)
I am an experienced sexual service submissive who understands protocols like kneeling.
I serve one Master with no other women in the household. I will not compete with others.
Me: Over 50. Adult children. I’m looking for a D/s, M/s dynamic. I’m a nonsmoker. Non Drinker. Willing to relocate. I want to be owned, and give everything I am — capable body servant. Capable domestic service. Writer/Reader/ sapiosexual. I want to open myself up to deep revelations and intimacies, allow my Master to feed on my light so that I ease his dark. I want to give everything so that I don’t have to think about anything but my Master. I don’t want to carry anything. I don’t want to be in control. I don’t want to have secrets. I don’t want to be afraid to be vulnerable. I want, badly, to feel whole, honest and safe.
Safe. Free. Owned.
You: Over 40. Adult children or no children. You have your crap together. Organized. Clean. Established. Leader. Or Retired leader. Non-smoker. Non Drinker. My Master is the anchor in the storm. He will not be the cause of the storms in my life. I will be proud to serve him, and he will be proud to own me.
A Master should not only know how to use me and keep me physically safe, he will know how to keep me mentally safe. He will learn me as I learn him, learn my moods, my wants, my needs as I yield to every one of his desires, wants and needs. He will know when to hold me, when to carry me, when to discipline me, when to punish me and when to prod me.
He will be a place of calm. At his feet, there is peace. When he clips on the leash, I will sigh and know that everything will be okay.
My Master will be in a position to pay for his household, his toys, and me. He will only require my heart, body, and mind in return for full service.
My Master will be a good communicator. His rules and expectations will be clear from the start. He knows what he wants. He knows what he needs. He knows where everything in his household is. He will set his own limits, boundaries, and stages for growth. He will not be in a hurry. He wants long term, and he knows that long-term relationships must build a strong foundation. He will write and he will read and be able to explain all of his needs and desires.
I want to fulfill all of my Master’s fantasies that I can be the woman others are too afraid, or too bratty, too lazy, too weak, or too selfish or too dull minded to be. My biggest fantasy is being this for my Master. (Read this again. This is the – what is her kink? That you are looking for)
He can chase me in the woods, we can play hide and seek and he can drag me to the bed by my hair. He can give me a bath and soothe my hurts one day and the next demand I act his servant, his cook, his footstool.
I am not young. I am not stupid. I am often foolish, impulsive and generally too kind. I do not need a Master for orgasms. I need a Master who is a wall I can break myself on and a cushion where I can find healing. I need a Master who will let me take care of him when he needs it, serve him when he wishes it, and be there for him when actions matter more than words.
I am looking for a Master to live the rest of my life with. Who has dreamed of a cage and a tail for me. Who has a collar and a leash and a bench on which to prostrate myself. A master who wants me to dress to please him and but who lets me wear a princess crown and dance for him when the mood strikes me. I am looking for a Master who wants a lady in the living room, and a slut in the bedroom—but who will test them both in the most delicious of devious of ways.
For a long time I thought I was not worthy of this type of Master. Now…now that I have let my life be burned down to nothing by the wrong kind of relationship, now I am no longer afraid to ask. What have I left to lose?