A couple of weeks ago I was looking for my HS yearbook in my storage locker and I came across a folder of poems I had written iwhen I was younger. I am going to post some so if you read my blog in the next few weeks please note the date attached to the poem and be forgiving. These were written by a young girl with a lot of hormones. Thanks
The First Time
It was beautiful, I think
It was easier that I expected
For the first time
His body was warm and heavy on mine
And I felt safe
But something was missing
Maybe a connection
We hardly knew each other
Softly and slowly he spoke to me
With words to supposedly turn me on
But they didn’t
They only made me uncomfortable
His hands slid down my back
The weight of his body disappeared
And at first I was confused
It was over
It all had happened in what seemed like only minutes
I was sure there was more to it
But there wasn’t
I think it was my fault
I expected too much
Then he got up to leave and didn’t say a word
He just left me there alone
In his bed
To tell the truth it wasn’t all that good
But it was the first time
And the rest have got to be better
5-14-1975
BDM
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The Game
He hits with the strength of a bull, so full of passion
He always wants to be on top
Commanding everything, running the show
On his face is an expression of mixed agony & ecstasy
As he knows he’s gonna score
The game comes to it’s climax as he hits home and sinks back
Feeling spent and exhausted
He awaits his next time up
Knowing that again he’ll make it home with one mighty blow
And with that thought a smile of satisfaction crosses his face
6-9-1975
RO
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I Try, But I Can’t
I try, but I can’t
I love you too much
But I don’t want you to know
So I try to keep it to myself
Once you find out I love you
You’ll hurt me, take advantage of me
And not care at all
You won’t love me back
So I try to hide my love
Whenever I see you
When I look at your face
My eyes travel down your body
Heat rises
And I want you
I’ve got to tell you
But I don’t want to blow this one
What if you turn away
And never see me again
Maybe you’ll be different
I hope so
I don’t need to get hurt again
But I want to tell you
I love you
Oh, you knew
4-28-77
VWD