People that know me well know New Years Day is my favorite holiday. The new year is a blank slate, waiting for me to make my mark on it. All my journals are empty waiting for my profound declarations. My “ledger” for the year is still in the black. I do not make resolutions I make wishes for a better me. Health, patience, and love, those are what my new years wishes center around. I like the idea that the year is brand new and I haven’t done anything to fuck it up yet. I haven’t had any confrontations with anyone. I haven’t loved and been hurt. I haven’t really done anything yet. There is a world of endless possibilities in front of me and I’m determined to grab at least one.
Some new years, like this one, I do have things to look forward to. Those things may lead to a confrontation and I may get my heart broken, but I’m willing to take that risk. I have been trying to find the right year to declare it “The Year of Me” but so far there hasn’t been one, but I have high hopes for 2026. What do I mean by The Year of Me? I mean the year that I finally shrug off all the things that have been holding me back, and bring out the things that make me special and unique. I’ve had some help to get me on my way. A Dom who is patient and understanding. He encourages me to be comfortable being my true self. He helps me understand not to worry about what other people think, only what he and I think, that’s all. He has been the single most important influence on my life in a very long time and I love that he chose me.
I will reassess my behavior for the last year and see where I can make improvements. Was I a good friend? A good sister? Or a good mother? Was I a good submissive to my master? So many places where I could improve. Not for “them” but for me, for us. Change takes time and patience. It takes the understanding of those around you. And it takes work, hard work. But that’s what a new year is for. I can start over, put in the work and hopefully improve and become who I want to be. For me, for my Master, for my family.
Happy New Year to all the wonderful people I have met on The Cage and to the ones I will meet in the future.