You are never too old to learn

Yes I do mean Groundhog Day like the movie where every day you get up and I just starts all over again the same thing as the day before the same thing as the day before the same rut, the same life. Something has got to happen to make that change. Something must to happen to keep you from repeating the same things over and over and over again.

If you were in this situation what would you do? How would you change your life? How would you make your life better? How would you try to keep it from getting worse. There there is no right or wrong answer. It’s all up to the individual, it is not up to the people that try to affect your life. It’s not up to your family. It’s not up to your partner. You are the only one that can change your life. You might get up off of the couch and go for a walk, that would help with your stress and your fitness. You might decide that a relationship has got to change that you can’t keep doing the same things over and over again. Sometimes change is good sometimes changes the worst thing you can do, the question is, how do you know the difference and how do you make the decision.

In myown situation, I needed to have knees replaced to stop the pain that I was in. I needed to lose weight in order to do that. If I was going to lose weight, I needed to change things that I was doing they were not allowing me to lose weight. I was eating the wrong foods at the wrong time of the day. So I began the process. I began to get up and walk more even though I had to use a walker or my wheelchair and then walk places where it was smooth enough to walk. I changed the foods I was eating and I reduced the portions. I’m not saying it was easy. It was not it still is not but I lost enough weight to get the knee. That was the worst done and now it is healing up and I’m able to get round more and more and I’m able to walk more and more. On Monday, I have my other knee replaced. This means that I’ve got a start over on getting to where I can walk again Trying to find out if I can walk without pain and if I can walk without pain, can I build my stamina backup to get where I was at before. Only time will answer that question however, I am attempting to change Groundhog Day. I’m attempting to get out of the rut. I’m attempting to improve myself. That’s all I can do.

And sometimes it gives you nothing but very low quality coal!

I have to remember that things going good doesn’t last. As I get older I find that I am getting used to trying to burn slag rocks in my stove and they just don’t burn. 9 I am old enough to to know the difference too)

I have that relationships kind of go that way too. Some good some really shitty days. And so the last week has been. Expiations out do reality. However, life goes on, that is until it doesn’t.  

Life can be very hard at times, this is something that I believe everyone has discovered from time to time. I know it has been that way for my life from time to time. 

However there times that life just shocks the hell out me. How can a person basically give up on fighting life and just quit fighting. Then within weeks of that decision, my life just changed, VA finally approved my knee replacements, I started talking to a woman that has completely changed me. When we first started talking it was just casual comments on pictures, a few brief emails, hone calls, video chats and then finally the moment of truth, an actual meeting! Things went great, and have continued that way. I have been happier than I have been since my injury in Antarctica right before Christmas in 2003. That injury ended a 35 year career that I really loved. Now, I smile again, I laugh at things, I look forward to each new day I look forward to what life could bring to me in my future, I look forward to talking to her. I still have problems, that is life, however a lot of my pain went away with the replacement of my left knee, my right knee is scheduled to be replaced later in July. 

Life is much better, each day seems better. I can smile again all because of a simple twist of life.

Well it is here, another birthday month. On the 14th I will have reached the age of 69. What is the saying; if I had known I would lived this long I would have taken better care of myself! Now with pins and rods holding my back together and a new knee inatalled with one once replacement coming in July I am continuing into a new year, with a new attitude toward life. I have hope for the first time in a long time. I have a special lady in my heart and new hope. 

With new hope comes new dreams and a possibility of new problems. I do so want the dreams much more than the problems!

As I chat with people here on the cage every once in a while, someone will say something that makes me feel really good. A lot of people say things that make me feel good, but only a few are able to say things that make me feel real good. One of those occasions happened yesterday. I’m very happy about it and I have to say that struck my heart. I really appreciate and wish to think the person that lifted me up so, So thank you very much and know that I appreciate you. I appreciate the words you say.

No matter what the role be it Master/slave, Dominant/submissive, Daddy/little or Just friends and family, I feel it must cherish the ones we have, Because we never know how long we will have them. We have no idea whether we will continue to be together as partners whether we still be close to our loved ones or even if death will in a relationship, Friendship or family, Break apart, the unions and the friendships that develop over the years. I feel that because of this, you must live every moment for the moment, You must love every love to the fullest. You must hold onto your loved ones while you have them. Separation could happen at any time it’s a matter of how you handle it. It’s a matter of your friends and your family comforting you it’s a matter of your mental state of mind. Will this tear you up? Will drive you down we just put you into a deep depression. You never know until it happens, but you can prepare for it. You can prepare for it by loving every minute for every minute, loving every hour for every hour and remembering to tell the ones you dearly love how much you dearly love them tell them over and over again 

For they can be gone in an instant!

I am reminded that the effects of aging seemed to be worse when you were having an upcoming birthday I don’t know why that is, but it seems to be that way. Now I think about my birthday and this year I do believe will be a better one than I’ve had in a long, long time. I’m hoping that between that and having my knees get fixed, I will be in less pain and be a happier individual.

For the people on here that are aging and can relate. The only advice I can give is work through the pain, I attempt to do that every day I attempt to keep a positive attitude, It isn’t always possible, but I try to.

When life gives you cherries, make a cherry pie and share it with a friend. Sometimes friends are hard to find sometimes they’re just around the corner. All you have to do is look be nice and smile. A smile was a long way towards making a new friend. And who knows sometimes a new friend may turn into a best friend, A girlfriend, And maybe even lover.

So open up, be respectful and don’t be afraid to talk to people. Take the time to get to know them then maybe the conversation can turn to something besides just normal vanilla and sometimes the other partner actually brings it up.

Since December 24, 2003 I have not worked more than a day or two because of my back. I was in Antarctica at the time working as heavy truck and equipment mechanic, I had to work in the back of a track fire truck. Because of the position and the work that had to be done, I blew out a disc after about a month fighting this fighting through the pain trying to work off and on they decided to go ahead and send me home. I flew from Antarctica back to Colorado. The first flight was from McMurdo Station Ross Sea To Christchurch, New Zealand. Spent the night there then the next day I boarded the first flight headed back to the states. The flight from Christchurch, New Zealand to Auckland New Zealand was fairly good. Then came an unexpected flight delay in Auckland NZ, the plane had troubles and an 8 hour period of waiting, then the long flight to LA USA. Then another delay and finely the flight to Denver CO USA. 

Then came 6 years of 4 back surgeries. Now I put up with pain, but the trick is to stay positive and stay focused. I am better at this, but a lot of work remains. 

Now finally to the point; whenever you find yourself facing a challenge, no matter what it may be. Try to stay positive, work your way through the problem, come out on the other side a batter person, don’t let the problem define you, You take control!

On March 9 of 2026 I finally got a replacement body part. It took 15 years, but VA finally approved and arranged. Replaced the moment of my left knee. Sure which shelf was easy. I was sleeping the whole time. My look leg look like somebody had been hitting it with a hammer when they finished however, I was black and blue from my ankle,all the way to my upper thigh. I spent the night in the hospital And that day, I also started walking on it. Released the next day to home I will not say it did not hurt it did, but it was only a couple of days till I realized it hurt less than it did with the old knee even with the surgery.

I am now recovering my second knee will be replaced somewhere around 20 July 2026 and then I get to start the whole process over again Thus the title Of replacement parts now if I could just go in and get both shoulders done both hips done my head lifted off on a new one put in place then my head lifted off on a body put underneath it. I’d be in pretty good shape. By the way, I want a body about 6’4’ and weighs about 0200 pounds without it being able to gain weight.