Random Thoughts💭

Finding writing a blog really hard tbh so thought I’d just do a basic brain dump 

• I really love Eurovision and I’m strangely disappointed every time that we come last 

• Does everyone else feel the way I feel when they stare at the stars, like they are so small and the universe is so big? Not a bad feeling I actually like it 

• Does everyone else feel as out of their depth in this world as I do? 

•Do spiders have the same thought running through their mind as we do about work,home, family? 

•Am I a little if I have a daddy kink? But I’m not into age play 

•Am I trying to label myself too much? (Prob) 

The theory is if I get all these questions outta my head onto paper then they stop going around my head

So according to my therapist I struggle to accept a compliment, I argued that I could until she explained that I use humour to counter any compliments she gives me. Therefore I’ve been given the amazing homework of writing things that I like about myself apparently me saying my tits was proving her point 😂

Let’s do this;

• I have an awesome sense of humour and my sarcasm is second to none.
• I’m loyal, there’s nothing more important to me so I make sure I’m loyal to friends and family.
• I’m a huge supporter of women’s sports esp football/soccer (it counts as a positive because I’m making a difference in helping the sport grow)
• I’m never knowingly mean, I try to be a good person and I honestly hate the thought of hurting anyone

Homework for everyone else coz solidity and all that stuff, write stuff that you like about yourself

Signing off with a joke,  I wanted to play a game of hide and seek but good players are so hard to find 😂

Just a quick thought today;

Why do people confuse having a daddy kink with having “daddy issues”? I have a great relationship with my father but that has no effect on my sexual desires  

Today’s joke; “Doctor Doctor I feel like a pair of curtains” “Oh pull yourself together man” 😂

Recently I’ve been thinking about what I’m looking for and during this I came to a realisation about a completely different dynamic in my life. My friendships 

Out of all my friends there’s only one that I’m completely comfortable going away with (we went America together) and I’ve realised it’s because I feel safe with her. I trust her to know how to get to where we’re going, how to handle it if things go wrong, I trust that she’s going to tell me that she’s checked menus and there’s a place where we’re eating, I trust that she’s going to make me eat. I’m not saying I don’t have a say, but I trust that when I’m with her I’m safe. 

That’s what I’m searching for safety.💕 

Todays joke; A man goes to the doctor “doctor help me I’ve swallowed a £20 note” the doctor tells him “come back in the morning and see if there’s any change”😂

Random post today I have no clue what to do with my hair. The choices are; 

1. I bleach roots and tone blonde
2. I bleach roots and dye pink 
3. I bleach roots and dye pink and lavender 
4. I go completely off script and dye it brunette 

Choices, choices I’ve already got dark pink, light pink, lavender and blue hair dye only one I can’t use is blue because my hairdresser will kill me and she scares me. 

Little joke that always makes me smile

A rabbit walks into a butchers shop and asks got any carrots? The butcher is a little confused and answers no. The following day the rabbit returns to the butchers shop and asks got any carrots? The butcher once again says no. The third day that week the rabbit is again in the butchers shop and asks do you have any carrots? The butcher getting angry answers no, we’re a butchers we sell meat we don’t sell carrots and if you come back tomorrow and ask for carrots I’m going to nail your feet to this counter. The next day the butcher groans when the rabbit walks in what do you want? The butcher growls do you have any nails asks the rabbit, the butcher is shocked and answers plainly no, well in that case do you have any carrots the rabbit asks 🐇🥕 

I love cheesy jokes btw, my family just shake their head at me but it’s fine I amuse myself

Here's the thing about me everyone classifies me as being open and honest too honest sometimes (I’m autistic) but what people don’t see is how much I hide.

I’ve decided I’m going to give this blog feelings thing a go which means I’ve gotta be open so let’s go with my biggest hidden feeling I don’t feel like a fully grown adult at 35 and I have no clue what I’m doing with my life.  

I’ve always looked younger and always been treated that way too. I honestly don’t know how I’d survive without my mum would prob starve, there’s a joke in my family that’s not a joke that if anything happens to my mum my younger brother will move in and look after me 😂. 

Anyways today’s joke … What do you call spiders who have just got married? … Newly Webs 

I’ve always found getting my feelings out really hard, I’m the type that in a argument I go silent so my therapist said to start a blog that’s basically just for me and ramble on so I thought I’d be a good girl and do just that. 
No idea what to put so thought I’d do what I do best and use humour so … Where do bad rainbows go? They go to prism, it’s only a light sentence but it gives them time to reflect🌈

I said I use humour never promised I was good at it 😂