You Come Too

Introduction Part 2

I ran into some feedback to Introduction this morning that felt controlling rather than recognizing. I let it sit there for a few hours, cleaned it off, and want to write a little further.

This is who I am. I didn’t wander into this space off the street nor have I years of experience in a role. I do however have years of experience in the inner life. In dealing with trauma and emotional patterns for survival. In refusing to abandon the heart and my orientation to love in order to mollify suffering. I have not flinched at the darkness and the darkness has not overcome me.

I write as I write. I speak as I speak. I was initiated into a new depth when life shed layer after layer of what I had built and could count on. Uranus in Taurus burned every down. Everything but me. I didn’t receive a roadmap when I walked out of hell with the ashes still in my hair and clothing. The hero’s journey, tarot, and myth say this is not the end but a new beginning. The new man must re-integrate into the world to complete the cycle. Chiron must take what was wounded and transmute it into what heals. I’m in the first days of a deeper register. I’m finding my way.

The world is undergoing a change in these times as well. If you know this you are ahead of the curve.

We must return to the heart. That is where I am going. There is nowhere else to go.

Ask Rumi to speak more plainly. As Thomas Merton to explain what he means. They can’t. If they did the inner meaning would be stripped away. If you have ears to hear then you will hear. If you do not then you won’t. I exist in my own authority and I will meet you in the heart.

Hello. I find what’s in me emerges when I’m in conversation with the Other. A sub asked me a question recently and this is what came out. I think it’s a worthy way to introduce myself to this wider community. I’ll leave her anonymous but I want to thank her for engaging. And to thank you for reading. You come too.

”I am a dom unusually disinterested in the label of dom. I might write a blog post for the site about that. Guide is closer … I take it very seriously. I don’t want to train a string of submissives. I want to take one on fully. I want to watch her transform under my attention as she finds her inner power expand. I want to experience what freely given respect and desire would do to my heart, not my ego. I want a sub that isn’t afraid of shattering my ego in her own truth. And a sub that aches in her bones to be kissed like the world is burning.”