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I am a girl, I red head who likes to self sabotage. What's new? Lol I've been on here awhile and haven't really invested. I've met some great people, some good people and some who should consider rethinking their choices in life. I am not perfect, but who is? I have up's and downs and a lot of inbetweens. I've never really had a blog, but let's see how this goes lol!
2 months ago. Aug 21, 2020, 6:31 AM

The low doesn't come in the night when you lay there alone.

It doesn't come when you first wake up, rolling over to feel no one beside you.

No the low hits you when you are wide awake.

When you are sitting there by yourself, just you and your brain. Thinking of all the things that you don't want to.

When you are watching your favorite show and feeling nothing.

The low will come at a time is not convenient. it will come when you need to be strong. 

It will come when you are alone, yes. It will wreak havoc on you mentally and emotionally. You may want to scream and cry and hide from the world. 

You must not let it take hold. Reach out. Be with people. Be weak in that moment but don't be weak alone. Allow the help that is being offered. Ask for it if you need it. Do not be afraid of being weak. 

4 months ago. Jun 11, 2020, 10:09 PM

So it's been awhile since I wrote something.

Life got crazy. I mean it did for everyone. But I got an extra sprinkle of fun. 

At the beginning of the world collapsing from the virus I was promoted while still finishing classes. That was fun, NOT! 

since January I have been up and down with "relationships" some ending cause they were not worth my submission and the one good one ended cause I messed up. 

I have been living with an asshole abuser who claimed to be a dom but really is not. He used me and threatened me if I tried to move out. 

I have finally gotten a backbone, not totally my own as I have opened myself to two amazing people that want me in their life. Though it may be rocky we are working through it. 

I can see the light. I am now getting my own place, I am working on me, I am opening myself to... love? I am becoming stronger, tougher and accepting me for me. 

The light is shining down and showing me there is an exit from the dark turmoil of this cave that I have been stuck in for far too long. 

Thanks for reading ๐Ÿ˜Š

5 months ago. May 20, 2020, 8:30 AM

It's one of a few mantras I say almost daily.

I also use "ain't no rest for the wicked" and "I'm going to a special place in hell" oh and "fuck it!"

These are what keeps me going in hard times. One for emotional hard times. One for stressful times and the other for when, well, when I just need to shake my head at myself for doing yet another stupid thing. And the last I probably use the most in every aspect of my life. Cause well fuck it, why not!

 

5 months ago. May 13, 2020, 2:30 AM

Apparently there is no such thing as a person's bubble๐Ÿ˜ฉ 

Oh is that phone breakable? Yes? Here let me slap it out of your hand.

Oh you want to sit peacefully on the couch reading? Here let me chew on you!

Oh you want to watch something let me jump on you and bark at people across the street! Oh wait no it's a leaf I'll bark even more!

Oh you're enjoying some nice scalding hot tea? Let me see if I can make you spill it everywhereally by ramming into the back of your legs while you try to walk somewhere!

Oh you want to get dressed? Here let me sniff all the private parts you hide under those things you put on to stop me from doing this!

Oh you're trying to eat? Here let me claw your arm to shreds so I can have some too!

Oh you're legs are far too pale! Let me jump and stand on them tI'll there's brises!  

Personal bubbles apparently do not exist when you have 2 dogs that like to act as if they're starved for attention... ๐Ÿ˜ง I love my fur babies but sometimes I'm about ready to ship them off to gramma's lol

5 months ago. May 11, 2020, 4:58 PM

So I'm a red head. And with that lovely red hair that so many adore I have fair skin. Yes that checks a lot of boxes for a lot of people. But what it doesn't check, is tanning. 

I go from "transparent" as Dragon11 likes to call me to angry red within an hour (or two if I'm lucky).

I was out enjoying the sunshine for the first time in months yesterday. Listening to the birds and my dad work on his new project (a boat this time) playing with the dogs, drinking tea and just enjoying life. 

And as I've said before karma is a bitch and she will bend you over her knee and give you the spanking you deserve. My mom got burnt Saturday and I was all "told you to be careful" blah blah blah. Yeah well then I was dumb on Sunday and was all la-dee-da and enjoying the sun. So... now I am also a red mess. 

The sad part is that my "tan" won't really be a tan.. I don't tan like the other 80% of the population. Oh no. I turn angry get slightly less transparent and then the freckles are like "hey there! We've been hiding, but since you got burnt we're coming out" ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ˜ข. 

Oh the life of being a red head lol

So least to say I've got some boo boo's that will be angry and hot for the next couple day's lol

5 months ago. May 6, 2020, 8:19 PM

I really miss working in the coffee shop. I had so much fun and made so many caffeinated drinks that would have me buzzing for hours lol. It was a total accident doing this late ary. .. but I thought it was so damn cool lol

5 months ago. May 6, 2020, 7:25 AM

^ "Catching the World on Fire" -we had a bad fire season last year and I caught this on a hike. Was too pretty to miss the opportunity

^ "Hidden Treasure" If you have ever been to Skagway Alaska and taken a tour of the cemetery this waterfall is just up the trail . I love this hike it's super easy and fun. You know you're there not only by the sound but the wall of mist that you hit at the crest of the hill. It's an amazing feeling. Like how a person might feel walking back in time. 

^"Perspective" It's all how you choose to look at things. 

Don't have a title for this.. I got bored one day and drew this.. Was going to paint it, but never got around to it lol]

 

I hope you enjoyed these :)

 

 

5 months ago. May 5, 2020, 1:52 AM

6 months ago. Apr 10, 2020, 9:18 PM

You know it's Friday when a really good cartoon is on and you watch it more than doing work cause it's such a great cartoon and your boss just shakes his head at you laughing at the show acting like an idiot...

Damn do I love my job some days more than others ๐Ÿ˜‚

6 months ago. Apr 8, 2020, 10:39 PM

Karma is a badass bitch!

She will knock you upside the head, break your heart and kick your ass into next week. You may ask yourself why she's doing it to you, what have you ever done wrong? 

I have a little story to tell of karma slaping someone hard and why she stood up for the little sub that was hurt, betrayed and broken.

There was a little sub. She had been wondering through the deep dark forest that she was slowly starting to learn. She had met the being's in the shadows, some were beautiful and kind and wanted to help her along her journey as much as they could, but they eventually left and she was a little sad whenever they did, but she was OK,  she was able to move forward. 

One day a beautiful, powerful and amazing creature stepped out of the shadows. He was perfect in every way. His satin voice whispered in her ear everything she ever wanted to hear. He held her close and made her feel special, he promised that if she stayed he would make her Queen of the forest. He called her sweet names and promised her the world. 

She had never found someone so special, who made her feel the things she did. 

He promised that he would love her forever. That he would protect her no matter what, and nothing would ever tear them apart.

But, one day the creature disappeared. And the little sub was worried, calling out for him. Maybe he had been hurt or somethin else equally bad or worse. She was scared. But he returned telling her that he something happened, but he was OK.  Things were alright again. 

He told her that he was going to take her to a special place where it would only be them, no one would bother them and they would be able to become king and queen of the forest. A honeymoon of a sort, just them for 2 weeks. Just in time for her birthday. What a beautiful gift she was going to get!

A couple days later he disappeared again. And once again she became worried and fearful for his wellbeing. This time he was gone longer. Coming back in the wee hours of the morning while she slept fitfully having terrible nightmares. 

when she asked what had happened he said that his mother was sick and he had to take care of her. The little sub understood as she would do the same for anyone she loved. 

The day came that they were supposed to go to the special place. But she awoke to a note, saying he would be back soon. She waited all day and into the next day... but nothing. She tried calling out to him, but there was nothing. 

She had been left with nothing more then a note saying he would be back. 

But he didn't come back. Hurt she ran and ran and ran through the forest. In her flight she came across a dragon, one that she had met before. He was kind and smart and powerful, she had been afraid of him before but this time she could see the kindness and tenderness in his eyes and knew that she would be safe with him. He pulled her close to his body warming her and comforting her with his deep rumbling purr. 

She stayed with him, protected and safe. Learning the ways of dragons. One day there was a rustle in the trees and the creature appeared. But he was no longer the beautiful creature she remembered. He asked the little sub rude questions about the dragon. And saying mean things to the little sub. The dragon heard this and let out a mighty roar and scared the creature off. 

The little sub heard whispers in the shadows that the creature had found a new sub 4 days after he was supposed to have taken her away to his special place.They were going to go to that special place.

The little sub was sad again, and angry. She cried out to Karma the wisest and most powerful creature in the forest. But the little sub didn't hear any reply from Karma.

The dragon took her broken pieces and put her back together. He trained her to be stronger. He guided her on the many paths she hadn't seen before. He protected her from the creature in the dark that would hurt her. 

One day the little sub and the dragon heard the cries of the creature. They heard his pain in the distance. And curious they looked to see what had happened. The creature stood outside a dwelling yelling that she had left him. That she had disappeared. 

The little sub and the dragon looked at each other and the dragon said "come my loyal and faithful little sub, we shall leave him" and they walked away. The little sub looked around the forest and saw the beautiful and dangerous eyes of Karma and knew she had heard the little sub in her time of pain. 

Moral of the story if you are going to fuck with someone be prepared for Karma to fuck your shit up the same way. 

P.S. if any subs would like to know who the "creature" is pm me. If you are a dom and would like to know please contact Dragon11  (don't want you to get in trouble๐Ÿ˜‰)