I'm in a new career that I love, a spin-off of the previous one. I work from 7pm to 7am, with a schedule I like; in one week, I will work Monday and Tuesday, have Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday off, and then work Saturday and Sunday, then the following week, the days flip flop.
Moving on to highlights of the past two years: I received a much-suspected diagnosis of ADHD and Binge Eating Disorder, and I am thrilled to finally have this diagnosis. We bought a 99-year-old farmhouse on the edge of town. We got married! Bishop and I were married on December 15, 2023. There was no color scheme, fancy dress, suit, tie, flowers, or reception, just at my eldest daughter's house with her and her husband signing as witnesses, followed up by a Facebook post to make it, you know, "official." While on our way home, I called in a to-go order for dinner at the local steak house; we enjoyed our quiet evening with steak, salmon, spicy cheese cubes, and, of course, our two dogs, Tah-a and Hades, begging for a bite. Bishop and Hades were back on the road the next day, and Tah-a and I went to bed as I worked that night; it was perfect.
In 5 short months, I turn 50! I am excited about that and ready to embrace this next stage of my life. The upcoming year will be filled with learning and growth and sharing my love of Walt Disney World with Bishop as we plan a week-long trip to see the Mouse. Nothing will test a couple like a week-long trip to WDW that is in the planning stages; if you can survive Disney, you can survive anything, LOL.
I've started on a list of books and videos Bishop assigned me. They are on the topics of logic and the principles of Bushido, which will make me think more deeply, understand what and why I do things, and challenge my thinking, not live on a superficial plane, to question everything I read and hear, to know what I stand for, and what I will fight for.
I'm learning to embrace my submission to Bishop by listening, not jumping ahead, or thinking I can do it without help... He is my Dommanint, and I am his submissive. I love him deeply and cherish every aspect of him.
I am learning to communicate better during conflicts. Communication has always been a problem of mine, most likely attributed to codependency and not wanting to ruffle feathers and keep the peace by keeping one's mouth shut. You see, in past relationships, if someone said, "I'm sorry," the conflict was expected to be swept under the rug and not brought up again, "that was that" even if there was still hurt and frustrations. Now, as I am learning and practicing healthy conflict resolution, and allowing myself to speak up, I'm realizing both persons can say they feel heard and understood.
So here I am with MY Bishop, living my life for me and for us. I've let a lot go and realize what people mean or don't mean to me. I no longer have the time to be a people-pleaser, and I have no guilt for not inviting them to my table.
I look forward to posting short stories, music videos of my at-the-moment mood, sharing our daily life, and whatever else might pop into my mind.