Complete Randomness

Anyone else in this heat wave? If so, stay cool 😰

I'm trying out a new diet, and when I follow it, no caffeine. It's been almost 2 weeks without coffee. I was encouraged this morning to have a cup. It's almost as if I forgot how to make it! 🤦

I started by inserting the coffee filter and adding the grounds. I use Chock Full O'Nuts. What's your preference? 🤔

Then turned it on. It beeped at me. I slapped it. I don't speak coffee maker language. I had no clue what it was trying to tell me. I turned it off, then back on. It hissed and beeped. I'm obviously pissing this thing off! So, I unplugged it. I don't have much knowledge with gadgets. The only other option left is putting it in rice. 🤔 So I needed this to work. Nope. Now it smells like it's overheating. Seriously pissed off coffee pot. 🤯

Before grabbing the rice (the last trick up my sleeve) I do a more thorough check. I forgot to water it. 🤦 Air coffee isn't a thing.

I add water. A huge puff of steam comes up from under the filter, sending dry coffee grounds in my eyes and up my nose!!! 😝

Lesson learned. Don't piss off the coffee maker. It'll get the last laugh.

Yeah, that seems to be my number one trait. At least that's the first thing I think about when I describe myself. I'm quirky. Not intended, it's just me. I have no intentions of pretending otherwise. I probably won't overanalyze myself to come up with an excuse. Instead, I keep trying to improve my social skills. I've made many acquaintances here, and a couple friends. Some lucky enough to get my silly Snapchats. 😉 *Head still hurts from yesterday's snap* 🤦

My biggest obstacle is the chatroom. Just little things. When I first joined I wouldn't enter without my mentor there. She was my protector. When things got to be too much for me, she created the balloon room for me. It was my escape. She could tell through just the way I was interacting if I needed that room. I no longer have her as a shielding wing that I can hide beneath until things are safe and stable again. It's rough. But I'm managing. I think I'm doing alright. There's still a little anxiety even though I can pretty much guess who will be in there. I struggle with do I say hello when I enter? What if I interrupt someone's conversation? Do I wait until someone greets me? That seems a bit...🤔 Attention getting. Do I 'wave' to the ones I know? That doesn't feel inclusive. So I toggle between whatever I'm in the mood to do. And, I admit, it depends on who's in the room. I'm very thankful for the acquaintances who greet me first. You have no idea the sense of relief that gives me! Thank you so much for being the designated lobby greeter. It makes everyone feel welcomed. 

I'm also getting better at commenting on blogs. Sprinkling a little sunshine here and there, offering encouragement when I can. Sometimes a blog is so good that I want to comment! But I can't take the words I'm thinking and form sentences. So I simply 'like' it and move on. Words escape me often. I think it's also a part of the social anxiety. Worried I'll say the wrong thing, or having it misconstrued into some evil intent that I could never even fathom. So I sit quietly. Or I become boisterous. There's really no middle ground unless I am in deep concentration on playing it cool.

Sometimes in chat I'm a silent observer, only carrying on conversations in pm. Other times, I'm participating in an online scene that I was excited to be asked to partake in. I see growth within myself. More self-confidence with each interaction. I'm happy with the outcome thus far. So, this is me. A jumbled, sparkly, woven mess. 

Thank you to everyone I encounter. For having the understanding and patience as I learn to interact with you all. ❤️

Just in case you never gave it much thought. 🙈🙉🙊

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Not all attention is good attention.

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I see it often written that new s types should ask other s types for their opinion of the D or M they are interested in. We should also ask for references. I think that's great advice. I don't see it reversed for the other side of the slash though. If it's not happening, it should be. 

I'm curious if Dom's/Masters ask s types for references and chat with others about who they are interested in. They could find out if the s type is legit or not, deceitful or brings drama or sweet and fun.  Is this happening? 🤔 Even if they hear something negative, they can always get to know them further to form their own opinion. I offer references when I meet someone new, do other subs as well? 🤔 

IT'S FINALLY TIME!!!!! 🎂🍾

IT'S GEMINI SEASON!!! 😁

Happy birthday to all my fellow twins!! ♊ Drinks for all! 🍹🍷🥂