Facebook memories reminded me that I officially came out as bisexual (now pansexual) two years ago today.
I've never regretted coming out as LGBT and supporting equality, even though I've dealt with a lot of judgment and abandonment for it, and society can be a very scary place for us sometimes.
I'm so much happier now that I can just be myself, without feeling terrified that these feelings for people other than men somehow made me "broken" or "disgusting" or unworthy of being treated with respect and admiration. I used to be so scared and humiliated to even admit these feelings to myself because I thought they made me a bad person. I also had the fear of Hell when I was religious.
Trying to convince myself that I was "normal" resulted in even more anxiety and depression. Coming out of the closet, and getting involved in a community that adores and respects me just as I am, has helped me SO much.
Although I still have anxiety and depression, it's getting better every day, and I know that being able to openly be myself has been a huge part of it. So thank you to everyone who has supported me as LGBTQ, and who has supported LGBTQ equality, because you guys have helped me a lot these past couple years. I needed your support and acceptance while I was figuring myself out and healing from life traumas, and you came through for me.
I'm still quite stressed about some money stuff, but even that is getting better and my anxiety has been manageable despite it. Some days I feel almost giddy because my cheerful happy creative self is back, and I'm slowly regaining my physical strength as well.
2017 is going to be a fantastic year. I have decided. It shall be full of music, art, kinky shenanigans, geeky everything, and hopefully healthy friendships and relationships. And lots of kitty snuggles. And probably copious amounts of chocolate.